Thursday Thunks

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1. Charlie Sheen is an idiot and will probably end up with his own stupid reality show that will get 40 million viewers the first day and then people will fall asleep and quit watching. What person, celebrity or not, would you watch every eppy of a reality show if they were the center of it all? I am pretty much an off the cuff reality show addict. I used to be in to Survivor (that lasted a season or two), and Big Brother ( a few seasons then it interrupted my other shoes so it had to go bye bye), I have watched both versions of Extreme Makeover. and I still watch :Home Edition, I loved the Swan but it was canceled, Date my Dad, Who wants to marry a Millionaire.. those don't last long. Ok for several years (I guess?) I have heard the talk about Jersey Shore. So while I am here on the computer doing other things and just bsing I will turn it on MTV.com... I enjoy it. I am admitting it here. I don't think sleeping around is smart and drinking until your arrested is either... but they are kids and when I was that age I probably did things just as crazy.. So let them be them.. none of our business or right to judge right? I mean think about this? They take Taxis if they are going clubbing I think that is smart and shows smart smarts lol. Its like when you were in College (most are college age) and you went to Spring Break... meets Girls Gone Wild... meets as an adult you go to Atlantic City or Vegas for you Western shore people... What goes on in Vegas stays in Vegas anyone? I don't make this up so it has to have a story behind the quote LOL. So I've watched Jersey Shore because they can be funny and its just a TV show that I don't have to think about, pay much attention to, etc.. it doesn't EFFECT my life. I watched Teen Mom 1 I don't know why I started but I watched it and loved one couple from the show. Now I watch Teen Mom 2 and the train wreck of some of those teen agers. I've done a few seasons of Real World. On VH1 I watch Celebrity Rehab, Surreal Life, Rock of Love with Bret Michaels, My Fair Brady, Celebrity Fit Club, Breaking Bonaduce, Flavor of Love, Tila Tequila Shot at Love.. other reality shows like the Osbournes, and Bret Michaels Life As I know It, Family Jewels with Gene Simmons.. I love those LOL There are a lot of shows that I don't know if you equate them as being reality shows too. Like Cake Boss, The Duggars, Baby Story, True Life, Snapped, Clean House etc...

 Right now as a family or a mini family We watch Bachelor and American Idol. The rest I dvr, catch when I catch it out of boredom or watch online.

Yup I might be a Celeb Reality/ Reality Show addict.

So what Reality Show would I watch every episode of? I am not sure probably one about Real Life Military unless it was that E Crapu-mentary that came on a few weeks ago

 

2. We all pay bills and wish we didn't have to. We all work and wish we could just lay around all day doing nothing. We all have those grown up responsibilities that we wish we could give to an African Elephant. Besides all the things the African Elephant got from you for the day, what is something from your high school years that you miss most of all? I love to learn. I love going to church (which really is like class isn't it? I have notes and a book, and a pen and a TEACHER of sorts...) So I still love to learn everyday. I love the social aspect of school and the pep rally's etc... 

3. Sometimes we want to grow wings and fly. Whats the farthest you've fallen? Once I fell off the Great American Scream Machine... but emotionally I have hit some rocks luckily not Rock bottom and i hope to never see that point.

4. There is square bread, wheat bread, circle shaped bread, bread with nuts in it, funny named bread. When you open a bread bag, do you twist it when you are done or put the metal tie thingie back on? (And did you know that if you look at that metal tie thingie, it has a day of the week printed on it?) Yes I knew that the colors of the metal tie have a meaning per day of the week when the bread was baked. I generally twist and go... depends on my dedication LOL

5. Some spoiled little brat (hey.. my opinion) called 911 on her teacher because he shook his own desk to get the students attention in the class. (I know, right?) Think back... what clever ways did a teacher of yours use to get the attention of the class or a particular student? Um I don't really recall anything creative or unusual probably just extra assignments?

6. Artwork, pictures, notes, appointments. How many magnets are on your refrigerator? I have 80 not including parts of the alphabet stored on top.. odd how it was an even number? maybe...

7. Cats are fluffy, dogs are soft, snakes are leathery, fish are wet.What is an animal that you have held or petted that you don't think many people have had the chance? Turkey, my mom had a pet Turkey named Tom. 

8. I'm coming to your house to paint your kitchen. I'm bringing the paint. What color should I not have with me? no black its just not right for a kitchen I think LOL.. i might loose my appliances!

9. Snow falls down, sometimes sideways. It still ends up on the ground. If snowflakes came in all different colors, which color snowflake would fall the fastest? They would all fall the same LOL

10. We caved... well at least I did. Are you glad Thursday Thunks is back? YES! I am a Newbie!

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all thesongs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I have been wanting to write this for sometime. I know three out of the five of them will be able to read this in the near future and perhaps the other two soon as well. So this Day Of Truth, This Entry into my blog, This letter, This playlist is to our kids.

Dear Alex we haven't spent a lot of time together because a few days after joining the family you became a man and joined the Army left for boot camp not even a week after I married your dad. I was put unknowingly at the helm of the family and I saw the hurt in your brothers face when you left. I don't know how much you were willing to take on that kind of responsibility or if I put it on you without you wanting it. But as the oldest you have your own responsibilities being the oldest. The brood looks up to you. You know this and I think at times you enjoy it. You like sharing things with your sister and playing with your baby brother. You and James can deny all you want but when you are here you two haven't grown that much apart. Yeah you've gotten a lot more social than James, you date, go out on the town where James doesn't yet but when you want to get into the family inner geek dom its not all lost. I am sure when your dad deployed in 2007 you understood that your brother was thrown into a new life (as well as your sister she's just better at dealing with it and expressing herself) that your brother had natural feelings of abandonment. That I needed you while you were at AIT and Korea to still be his brother, his best friend because you ARE supposed to be there for him. In my heart of hearts in my deep part of my soul I feel like that's the way families are supposed to be. Rick and I don't have that but I REALLY want that for you kids because one day you will realize the blood running through your veins means more than anything. Something happened in Korea where you didn't call back to the states for three months... then it happened again while you were deployed. I don't know what happened out there. You won't open up to me. When you do open up I see anger. I see your angry with your upbringing but sweetie you can't stay angry at the past. Its not healthy and its just you hiding from the truth. I know the past doesn't define you and if your sick son you will get help. I know if your angry you will work it out but burning the bridges of your dad and I, Aunt Pat, and Aunt Beth and Uncle George aren't the answer either. I know your a faithful man so you have to give all those hateful and angry feelings to God and work on the present Alex. The Alex who has seen more countries and probably more terrible stuff than most people. That you can put on the plate of experience. You can't work on repairing something actively by acting like its not there. We are here loving and worried about you. Alex we have talked and you know I am right you admitted to yourself that you have a problem. Stop hiding from us. Start working on your hurts, the pain that was caused to you totally unintentional. My song for you I chose is Innocent by Taylor Swift. Why did I choose this song? I know you probably don't like her singing but as to why I chose this song for you its personal and I don't think its the right thing to put out there. Its between you and I. If you could just give me a few hours of your time and let me tell you how we feel. I love you and you can't deny that. When you were in Korea I found a way to call the Chaplain there to hunt you down. When you didn't come home for R&R again I harassed the FRG.. WHY do you think I did this Alex? Why do you think no one cares about you? Just look up the lyrics to the song and if you have any questions you know my number and I don't avoid calls from you. I am always here unless your disrespectful toward me. Have faith, trust in God, Give it to God, God is God and God is always GOOD! 

Dear James
Unlike Alex and I you and I have gotten very close over the years. I think you have opened up to me more than most people. I think you know I can relate. I am hard as bricks on you but I think you very much need it. I think you know that too your just not willing to take that step. I am waiting for you and Rick to take that step. I think you have to initiate it though. I have seen some tough crap you've gone through. I have been heart broken with you. I have felt helpless that I couldn't make it better. I have seen you overcome things when you put your mind to it and in agreement with outside people it does take time... but the bird never left the nest because they wanted to.. usually mom has to be the one to push them to fly. You can try to hide the pain you have from the past and the present but I see it because I am a mom and I know you very well. I believe in you. I believe in your dreams if you don't want to be too blind to see them. Yesy your blind to your own dreams. Dreams your afraid to achieve. I believe you can do it. I believe you still have faith even though you don't want to worship anymore. I do believe you don't believe you can do anything you set your mind too. I do believe you can! Reach for the moon if you miss you will fall amongst the stars. Do you ever think about quotes like that? I don't think often enough. Find some inspiration, find your dreams and achieve them taking baby steps... You can do it! I chose for you well you know this song very well and you know that this is my song to you. Its 3 doors Down Its the Only One you Got. Why? Because I think you punish yourself for the past much like your brother you've learned to punish yourself and let it hold you back. This song is really meant for you and Alex. James you think its a good thing to run away and not face reality when its not because even if you don't try because your afraid of failure you still fail trying... I pray about you every single day to find the strength to move forward and NOT take the two steps back. I have seen you do it James! I know that you probably don't push to get your drivers license because your scared of that responsibility. Your scared to move forward scared of what is over the bridge. Just pray... look before you leap and dream! There is nothing else to it.


Dear Mackenzie
Mama Loves you and always will. I will always want you. Remember when I told you when you were little every time you see a butterfly its me thinking about you. Every May 31st I celebrate you. I celebrate the young man your becoming and wonder what its like in your world. Most days I get through okay. Some days I just have a harder time because its like time stopped at the age of three and I know your still growing and changing and surely being a good boy. I loved seeing you be a big brother to your sister and your unique personality. Sweetie soon we will be reunited and I can tell you all about your dad, you as a baby and us... I hope so soon. I chose Always by Building 429 for you because I believe in Gods promises and there is a reason for the past 7 years without you and one day we will be together again and hopefully you will let me be in your life and give you the love I have been waiting to give. As a baby Breathe by Faith Hill was my song to you. I'm Already There by Lonestar

Dear Skylar.
My only princess. Right now you don't understand how quite special that is. To me its very special. I love your brothers very much but your unique to me because it was just you and me for so long so I am much more protective or protective in another way. Its just us girls in pink in our house of Camo... rightly so.. I love our girl time together. Since William was born we don't get it as much but perhaps more during the Summer it will be easier that we can go get our nails done together and do the makeovers at Spoiled Rockin Kids. Things Daddy and William don't enjoy. I love that your the only princess I can spoil you and be there for you.. No competition! My princess I hope you grow up well and that I have taught you how to be a good person and a best friend. One day you might fall in love, get married and have a family.. and your daughter will be just like you! I am very proud of you! The songs I have chosen for you are In My Daughters Eyes by Martina Mcbride and Never Grow up by Taylor Swift. Dear my favorite daughter keep your faith and never let it go...

Dear William
aka Destroyer of Worlds (apparently moms eye sight) your so curious in this big world. Your fearless at times and other times you cling to mom and dad. I hope as you grow I can show you that you can always come back to me. I hope you always keep your sense of curiosity but remember to follow the right paths. Your so curious to see how things work and how we do things. Of course being the youngest of five your in a hurry to grow up. What I can't tell you is your mama's baby boy and you need to slow down and enjoy your adventures now without taking on bigger ones. I hope you have the best in life like we couldn't provide your brothers and sister. I chose for you God Speed by Dixie Chicks, Pure Imagination which is your favorite song from the Willy Wonka Sound track

Whether I gave birth to you I will love you just as much as you did. I promise you that. Just remember even when I make you scrape your knees its out of love. It doesn't mean I love you less. It just means you have to fall before you learn to get back up...

To All of you I dedicate I hope you Dance by Lee Ann Womack and Watching You by Rodney Atkins.

** to Facebook This was very emotional to write but I have been trying to do it for a long time not succeeding. I still don't think I succeeded and for the actual play list check my blog..

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

I think my grandfather owned a farm his entire adult life. He believed real men were farmers and in the Military. I think he is right. My mom owns a farm and has for a long time too. When I was 18 I moved in with her and my grandfather gave me three black calves to take care of. I fed them bottles of milk round the clock. Incase you haven't seen a cow bottle you should LOL. (See blog)

Before I graduated I went between being an Radiologist or a Psychologist even thought about seminary for awhile. But I have a hard time working with people sometimes. I want to help them but they just give me lip.LOL After living with my mother one of my calves (I had two females and one male) the male Midnight got sick and had a cyst on his face. My mom and the vet held down the calf while I cut and drained the cyst. That was amazing! There was nervous horse in the stall who had gotten tangled in barbed wire and the other horse who was in heat making the nervous horse in a lot of pain. But I did it. I nursed Midnight back to health. He would come to my window at all hours looking for food. I loved taking care of them. i watched Mighty Joe Young (the newer one) and I decided I really wanted to be a zoologist or a large animal Veterinarian.

There are no zoos in H'ville just a free roam family owned safari so no zoo school for me and my dream didn't die my priority changed. I was called to be a military wife. I completely think that is true. I was called to be step parents to these lost boys and give my daughter more stability and eventually provide for my other two children. My sons. I will also think of Veterinary Medicine fondly and perhaps I will be a Vet tech one day and learn some of the trade. Maybe one day Huntsville will have a zoo (I doubt it) but I am and always have been willing to do the work on a farm or in a clinic or zoo,

Ten on Tuesday

Ten of the greatest blogs in my opinion ... ok so it may be just the ten I like to read most but I have good taste

1.) Her War Her Voice ... right here
2.) because I said so ...right here
3.) Stark Raving Mad Mommy ... is right here


4.) Sleep Talking Man ... right here
5.) Mckmara .... is here
6.) Kevin and Amanda... I just drool here.. I am dying to meet her!
7.) troop petrie she's over here
8.) Household 6 Diva is here

9.) The Tuckers Take Tennessee is here
10.) Mayim Bialik http://moms.today.com/_news/2011/03/07/6212018-mayim-bialik-why-we-let-our-children-sleep-in-our-bed

Of course there are more than 10 that I love but the rest are my friends that have private blogs they are free to post their links in my comments. I do read their blogs almost daily...

What's your blog or favorite blog?

Brad Paisley - She's Everything

They say the Twilight Saga can harm marriages and give women a false hope in a fairytale type romance. I say give me a break we know there are no vampires and werewolves for every girl to be fought over. I think what you have to worry about is country music and people like Brad that sing to us the words we long to hear

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I love this quote but I also think that even though we aren't God's puppets on a string maybe divine intervention comes in and does some things for a reason. Its all a part of fate and our destiny. The only true Regret I have is giving Mackenzie to Adam that day. Even though somewhere deep inside of my I regret it. Also somewhere deep inside of me I also know God has a bigger reason for that. I was still filled with instability and one bad relationship after another. No life for a kid. I have so much more to offer him now and I am still working on giving more. I just try a little harder. I think I wish I wouldn't have given in to a peer pressure as a kid, done better in school, saved more of my valuables, I wish I had more pictures of my grand parents, I wish I hadn't waited till I was 27 and my husband was deploying to get my drivers license.... I guess we all have wishes of things we wished we hadn't done. Maybe I should have been a virgin till I got married. Maybe I shouldn't have married Adam and held out... Then would i have had Mackenzie. In church yesterday the Pastor spoke about holding out for the right person brings more gifts to your marriage. It gave me a lot to think about too. 
So I wish I had saved my virgiinity, I wish I wouldn't have given up a lot of my belongings, I wish I hadn't trusted certain people, I wish I hadn't listened to Helene and Adam that Fathers Day that Adam never brought Mackenzie back to me, I wish I hadn't pissed around in school when I did... but If I wasn't so sick, I didn't marry Adam, I didn't piss around in school... then maybe I wouldn't be who I am today. Everything in my life made me who I am down to the penny I picked up out of a parking lot. Changing one tiny thing can alter your life forever.

No Mom Talk Monday ~ Manners

Why is it when I talk about manners people say oh that must be a Southern Thing. When your rude to me I don't go around saying oh that must be a Yankee Thing! For those who don't know I was pretty much raised the core of my youth by someone who was born and raised in New York and New Jersey but very much had been a southern lady by the grace of God.  Why do manners have to be a southern thing? I don't get it. Maybe if I said Yes Ma'am in New York City to an elderly lady she wouldn't think our future had gone to hell in a hand basket. So why don't you try it! Maybe the world can start being a little southern... there is NOTHING wrong with it. I make it a point to note the name of the bagger, cashier, waiter, or someone who is providing a service for me. Mind my manners and say Thank You, Please, and Have a good day or weekend. Whatever. Don't you think they feel down beaten enough just doing that fairly if not all the way sucky job? Maybe they are going through a hard ship and need prayer.. So slow down your day a bit. Notice the girl sitting next to you and maybe help someone across the street. Its gonna be alright!

Now while we are on the subject of manners. Do you go around asking people to buy you stuff like they are loaded and have all this money to blow because you asked them to? It makes you look petty and jealous. You may envy my husband's 9-5 job (which is hardly 9-5), his paycheck, or my car, or my house. But at the same time I can envy (I am not the jealous type)...the fact that your close to your mother and family. I am not close to my extended family. I got great (most of the time) kids and a husband that helps because we are ALL we got... each other. You do what you have to do to survive.

Okay so a little refresher... on manners
1) Don't ask people to buy you stuff all the time.. They should be buying it because they want to. I don't know about you but when I feel like I talked someone into doing something for me I can't enjoy it as much as doing it for myself.  Begging isn't cute...
2) Don't ask people how much money they spend unless your just curious. Occasionally its all good and I don't mind bragging about my great deals but its really none of your business and its up to me whether or not I want to tell you. Bragging isn't cute always either.
3) Don't ask people how much they weigh... ugh... Anorexia anyone?
4) Don't ask people how much they make... I may have more money than you but I still got debt, I still got bills, I still have things to pay for and NO ONE else... pays my bills for me. I don't get any kind of government assistance or an allowance from mommy & daddy. I don't get Christmas gifts from family usually... So be thankful for what you do have because all of Americans DON'T GOT IT! They are still living in a fema trailer down in the 9th ward or they are that poor guy outside of Burger King yesterday with his face weathered, his clothes and skin dirty, talking to himself and making hand gestures... damn I should have bought him some food or something. He didn't ASK me for anything either!
5) Don't ask me why my kids do certain behaviors that you don't think are normal or that your PERFECT little brats don't do.. These are children raised by me and not you therefore they are going to act differently because I am different than you. I was raised with a different belief system, I have been through my trials  and only I have walked in my shoes. I still find it incredibly rude for someone to ask if my kids are spoiled. Yeah and so what? Don't compare my children to yours then complain when someone compares theirs to yours. People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

Happy Homemaker Monday

The weather in my neck of the woods:
Here at Redstone Arsenal in Madison and Huntsville AL its going to be a cold week. Its 43 degree's right now and a high of 58 degree's. It rained on Saturday which ruined our plans of driving around to see signs of spring especially on Monte Sano. Enjoying our what was then Spring weather. So its a little gloomy and partly cloudy.

Things that make me happy: 
Church when its unstressful make me happy. Lately its been a struggle. My children laughing make me happy. The way that my youngest looks up to his sister and his sister looks up to her brothers. It makes me happy when my 19 month old runs up to me and squeezes me in his bear hug and pats my back to tell me he loves me in his own way. 

Book I'm reading:
I have three books on the book shelf over my head intended to read but I don't get much of a chance. In Memorys Kitchen, Love Comes Softly, and a biography on C.S. Lewis..

What's on my TV today: 
Tonight is Castle night. We love Nathan Fillion. Its also Bachelor night.

On the menu for dinner:
Garlic Chicken is what I am in the mood for. I have been horrible about my weekly menu planning.

On my To Do List:
There are always chores to do in this house.
Its spring cleaning time and its time to make goals and lists for each improvement we would like to do.
For the living room... continue buying DVD books for all our dvd's, Finding a better way to manage the pit as we call it. Toy purge, I would like to put some kind of light in the Shoe Closet/Storm Shelter... why wasn't it built with one? I guess you don't need a light while waiting on a Tornado to pass by... its much less scary in pitch blackness? LOL. For the dining room. Lily's cage needs cleaning, she needs a new net for her cage and my friend over at Steph's designs is hopefully going to come up with a cover for her. Oh yeah she needs measurements again! Back Yard clean up.. Yay for me I hired the guy to come fertilize and do weed control. Time to get some cleaner and go out there and scrub everything. Rick needs to find the canopy tisk tisk...I would love a fence but they are SOOO expensive.. WHY? Kitchen just needs reorganizing BADLY. Family Room/Office. I want to get rid of Skylar's craft table that just seems to call to the clutter and becomes a clutter keeper. If I get rid of things that attract clutter then there will be less clutter right? She never uses it because its too cluttered... see the pattern? That can be a toy area instead of my living room? All carpet down stairs needs shampooing. Skylar's room needs her art hung, curtains, a rug, and hopefully a loft or bunk bed.. we still haven't decided. William's room needs my stock room moved out of it and I want a bed set for his twin bed and to covert William over to a day bed and get his room ready for a toddler! My room and bathroom are the WORST... I need a dresser or something like that badly... I am going to purge closets hopefully I am just so tired of it all! LOL


Peanut needs new tags and his chip paid for. All three needs boosters.


My Car need maintained and a new stereo.


Blog makeover 


Pictures


Easter Outfits

New Recipe I tried or want to try soon:
one my friend Kristin shared with me.. I haven't gotten to try it yet.

In the craft basket:
Scrap Layout for a family member as a Thank You Gift
I have lots of layouts I would LIKE to do but I haven't scrapbooked in two years. Rick's money stress doesn't help me. I am working with Steph's Designs (her facebook page) to make Lily's cover, A t-shirt for Skylar to match her tutu, Perhaps matching Easter outfits for the kids, Repair my ACU purse... the person that made it says its called plastic sheeting and to ask the craft department in Walmart. Since I am still anti Walmart I will ask Joanne's, Hancock, Michaels, and Hobby Lobby First lol! After Easter projects comes William's party planning! I always have a project or I get bored!

Looking forward to this week:
Kids Consignment sales the two big ones are this weekend. I could be at one right now but I am holding back... I might kick myself later.

Tips and Tricks:
since its Consignment sale time in my area and soon to be yard sale time. I tend to buy off season. Now most of my consignments only sale for the current season. But double check those racks and buy off season a size or two up or the same size... I usually go the current size up to two sizes more. I pack it and label it in a tupperware for later use.

My favorite blog post this week: 
30 Days of Truth I am following my friends :). On My blog? Oh geeze I don't know. You nominate one and I will go with that one next week lmao

Blog Hopping (a new discovered blog you would like to share with the readers):
Mayim Bialik from celebrity stardom on the comedy in the 90's called Blossom is now a college educated PHD and parent to two who writes for Today.  http://www.themompetition.com/2011/03/why-i-dont-force-my-kids-to-do-stuff.html oh and if you follow the link it goes to the Mom Petition that is so funny

No words needed (favorite photo or picture, yours or others you want to share):

Lesson learned the past few days:
There is so much to be learned but I am drawing a blank.

On my mind:
Little man got sick to his stomach this morning it was a scary moment but I just think it was sour stomach. Now he's napping. His battery will be fully recharged soon and back to mischief.

Devotionals, Scripture Reading, Key Verses:
Proverbs 17:9 Love prospers when a fault is forgiven, but dwelling on it separates close friends.

Pray for Me Monday

For myself. Please pray for me.. that the word of God I learn every week in church evolves into something beautiful in my heart and soul. Pray for me that I can learn to be a better mother to my children and a better wife to my husband. For I get what I give in return. Please pray for me. I needed some dress slacks so I went shopping yesterday after church. I went to Lane Bryant because everything was 40% off. I tried on some slacks and jeans and I am so insecure about my weight... I am putting a goal out there to loose some before mid April. 1 month and I would like to loose ten pounds! Then I went to Avenue as Rick went to Movie and Game Stop with William. I had Skylar... Nothing much there that I was interested in. I see so many clothes and I would love to be fashionable but I just don't know what is good for me. I saw a sweater or maybe possibly it was robe? I didn't buy it because I didn't know. I went to Cato which I have seen some of their styles on there website and I was excited to finally have money to spend on myself and buy me some nice CUTE clothes. William & Skylar were napping in the car so I told Rick to just take a nap with them. Then William woke up so they went into Petco. I was so lonely in Cato by myself. No sales associates wanted to help me. They barely greeted me at any of the three stores. I was feeling so isolated, lonely, and lost. Insecure about my weight and new body type. Not sure what styles to wear and at that point just wanting a female friend to give me the thumbs up or thumbs down. I haven't had one of those in a long time. I don't find that in a friend very often. Its something I crave. I just hate walking into a store like Lane Bryant where the clothes barely fit me (they usually don't carry my size) and most of them are styled for bigger girls (I'm really sounding like I am denial) Then a lot of stores like Kohls and other places either have juniors which wouldn't fit properly and God knows I am not in my 20's anymore nor do I look like it. Or what I would consider clothes for more mature women (Rick once told me he thought his mother would wear something I tried on). I understand Rick HATES clothing shopping but I just wish he would understand sometimes he needs to put up with the bull of helping me out. I have no friends that I can do this with and HE IS supposed to be my BEST FRIEND... If I can't go shopping with my best friend who can I shop with? Sometimes I even show him on the computer what I like/dislike and I just want his opinion. Its just TOO difficult and frustrating to keep his attention because he gets overwhelmed dealing with William and he can't focus on both. Lead Me

Pray for my children. Alex has been quiet for some time now. He's having car problems with his second car since he got back to Ft Hood from his deployment. He also had computer problems? He has had his struggles and some illness. We used to call him the Moral compass now he just seems to be drifting from God and into the bottom of a bottle. I hope he opens up to God soon and finds his path again. Innocent 

Pray for James. James always needs guidance and prayer as he struggles everyday. He doesn't attend church and doesn't feel comfortable. I pray he is God Fearing and faithful.  Its the Only One You Got

Pray for Mackenzie. He always needs to be in Gods protection. Best of Intentions & Always

Pray for Skylar. She's turning into a tween and its hard for her old ma. She's had an upset stomach for more than week and struggles going to school everyday. Never Grow Up

Pray for William. He's got a lot on his plate. Toddler hood is so dangerous and so busy. He is growing up so fast. He is constantly exploring, climbing, and learning how things work. Without Rick and My watchful eye and the over protective gaze of his older brother my little Tonka Truck could find trouble. He now has an upset stomach and a slight fever. Hopefully he didn't catch Skylar's bug she got from her teacher. Please pray for William that one day he will like the church nursery and his separation anxiety will get better so Rick and I can have that connection back of the sermon together. I pray that he knows he can slow down at any time and just enjoy being the smallest! God Speed

Please Pray for Rick as he still struggles of being out of the Army. It was his life for a quarter of a century. Its not hard to just pack that up in a box and leave it behind. So many things the military let him experience but so many coping mechanisms that he didn't learn. In his quest to serve and give the best of him. Honor, Duty, Country... please pray that he finds God, Family Country can be rewarding an awesome. Pray that he learns how to balance a good work ethic and family life, Pray for him that is understanding about what I go through, Pray that in all marriages we become Godly and follow the word so our marriages can be rewarded. Bound to You

If your a follower on Facebook you know I've been praying for Dylan. Please pray for the doctors treated Dylan that God guides them with wisdom and direction to find out what is making little man so sick. Pray for his mom who is dealing with this as well as her other children. Pray for his dad who is overseas that all this stress doesn't effect his duty and get himself hurt. Pray for his safety.

Then another prayer request is for Ty Campbell who is my little cancer Warrior! I have been following his story a little while now and he is just the sweetest little boy. His mommy's blog is here 

other prayers are for my friends Jennifer and Chris back home in Calhoun who are due with a new baby that has had some hurdles. 

Please Pray for another friend who is pregnant and pray for her to take care of herself before all. There is a little one and two big ones depending on it! 

God Bless the Child

To all the men and women in the Military. God knows my prayers. He knows my struggles. He knows yours too. Please pray for unspoken prayers as well

For more prayer requests please go to Home Grown Families

 

Unified medical command could save $460m a year - Military News | News From Afghanistan, Iraq And Around The World - Military Times

Unified medical command could save $460m a year - Military News | News From Afghanistan, Iraq And Around The World - Military Times

Military Monday (Army Wives Spoiler inside)

So did you watch the season premiere of Army Wives last night on Lifetime? If you missed it I am sure you can catch it on http://www.mylifetime.com/shows/army-wives/

Its funny I started thinking about Sister Wives like from this show after watching two women on Coming Home a new TV show on Lifetime after Army Wives.  

How some of us Military Wives certainly become Sister Wives in one sense. I know I spent more time with my battle buddy(s) the first year of our marriage than I did with him. There were many months where Jessica R and I could have put our BAH together because I practically lived there if it weren't for James. I helped her with her daughter and she drove me to places when I couldn't get there on my own. Betty C. and I got extremely close she would help me with my kids and I was there for her emotionally during what was both our first deployment. Yes Military wives cook together, baby sit for each other, clean each other's house, PCS together... We in all but the sexual part of the life style become Sister Wives. At one point my battle buddy's and I decided that instead of cooking just four ourselves we would do a pot luck once a week. Isn't this kind of how Sister Wives work?

I think the characters of Army Wives is a perfect example. When a Soldier isn't home we step in and help.. I would be there for any of my close Military Wife friends even if their Soldier/Marine/Airman was home.. all they had to do was ask.

Do not scroll past the picture of the Cast of Army Wives

What did we all think of Army Wives? Wow! Man I am reluctant to blog about it because of this invention called DVR.. now people "tape" or record things more now to watch later. My first pfft... is the fact that it comes on opposite Desperate Housewives. I have watched Desperate Housewives since the beginning too. So I guess I am going to have to watch Army Wives, record DH, and Coming home and watch DH after Army Wives and find time another night to watch Coming home! Oh boy! I love Brothers and Sisters but Rick doesn't so I can always watch that when he isn't here during the day. That's how I watch most of my VH1/MTV reality shows and House. Anyways. In the previews someone is going to die and I pray its not who I think it is. My guess is Jeremy. Don't worry no one dies during the Season Premiere they are probably waiting till sweeps.. 

Well I warned you and I just can't contain myself and not write a post on Military Monday about Army Wives  that was YESTERDAY..

Roxy and Trevor... I am glad she didn't get seduced by her old friend. Rick thought it was going to happen. I knew Roxy better. Why? Roxy is me in so many ways lmao. They didn't mention her pregnancy again.. well it didn't come up. I can certainly feel the emotions she is having right now after all Meredith from Greys Anatomy would call her a hormone casserole PLUS normal deployment blah's. 

on a side note... I loved when I used to go to the doctor while my husband was deployed (the doctor at the Army Medical Clinic) and they would be like are you depressed? Same question every visit... and I would be like DUH! LOL

back to Roxy... did they change TJ's actor?

Joan and Roland are going through the same path they took season 2? Joan is in it to win it! I mean she is a career oriented woman but like my own life she needs to learn to balance... She has to be there for Roland as much as she is there for the Army in ONE way or another. 

Claudia Joy and General Holden.. I wonder why she is reluctant to move to West Point? She certainly got the  new Army wife attitude of "I should know better than to make plans in the Army"... I wouldn't see that coming from a seasoned wife? Do you think medically she is going to be alright with no one around to keep a close eye on her? I am surprised they didn't bring up the last time she took a daughter to college. You know maybe a PTSD moment? Do you think she is going to get Empty Nest syndrome? 

Frank and Denise Oh my! Denise is older and its so much harder to take care of a newborn when your older and have that sleep deprivation. Why do you think Frank is so lax on Jeremy getting married so fast? Jeremy's fiancée didn't make a good impression on Denise did she? It wasn't her fault or either of their fault.. bless them!  Btw Newborns usually don't have tears so that wouldn't have been a symptom that Denise missed. What's wrong with Molly anyways? Next week might suck a little! What do you think about Jeremy and his Fiancée?

Whoa WHOA! Whoa Pam! No Atlanta? No Chase? You have the hots for HIM? Wow! Didn't see it coming at least not from your side!

Coming Home. I would attend a home coming for any Soldier but since neither of MY Soldiers got one I just have the wtc attitude about homecomings. I think Rick's 24 years, several deployments... and never got any kind of ceremony. OF COURSE he doesn't want one but that doesn't mean he doesn't deserve it. No one in the unit even organized anything for his retirement. Yeah golly gee thanks for your 24 years of dedication etc... 

So I have an admittedly sucky attitude about Home Coming Ceremonies. The show was overall pretty good (I fell asleep toward the end) and I think its great Lifetime is bringing so much NEEDED and POSITIVE attention to the Military Life. 

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Kristin I would be at her side like there was no fight. I would fly to her or do whatever within my power to be at her side especially if Peter wasn't.

Jennifer. I would drive to her and help do whatever I could with her kids.

Most of all pray!

Day 20 of 30 DOT→ Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Ok here is the truth as I know it. I am Drug Free. I have to take prescriptions for depression (Lexapro), and Vitamins, Mucinex for my lungs, I have an Inhaler, and I have Thyroid Medicine... OTHER than that I do not partake in drug use for recreational purposes. I do not believe in drugs and I don't like it around me. The only drug I do for recreational purposes comes in the form of my drink and that is caffeine. I rarely ever drink alcohol Occasional (like every few months) glass of moscato wine or a few sips of a Long Island Ice Tea. I can't even drink a Long Island Ice Tea anymore without being sick. I don't the taste and I used to LOVE them and I used to drink Zima or Smirnoff. I love GOOD Tequila but everything I have tried is disgusting.. so I just don't drink alcohol.

I was born with many birth defects that more than one doctor has told me was caused by enviromental causes... Well see environmental causes is everything BUT the gene pool. They suspect it was caused by drugs and or alcohol use. They have suspected for awhile I have Fetal Alcohol Syndrome too. Three perfectly birthed children from my womb kind of prove the theory that its not genetic. Furthermore time and time again I have seen drugs cause people to loose their jobs, families, and lives and crumble into a hot mess... and steal whatever else.. THIS INCLUDES Marijuana use. However in true need of Marijuana for illness I think it should be legalized. I have had drugs effect my life in negative ways too much to be supportive of drug use in my life. Like my last relationship ended because he was popping xanax and drinking on top of it.. Okay so the xanax was prescribed but the prescription didn't say 6 pills at once and please drink alcohol with me... Or when he was secretly smoking pot and got arrested in front of my child... not acceptable ever...Can you think of any reason ever to get arrested buying, doing or having the possession of drugs with your children present? I can't!

Day 19 of 30 dot → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

We have been attending Willowbrook Baptist Church for almost three years now. We are guests. We are not Baptist but we are Christian. Sometimes I say I am Christian with Jewish Residue.. LOL Because Jewish people don't have it ALL WRONG. I am still finding, following and growing with my faith. Pastor Mark is like my leader teaching me about God. If you live in the area Pastor Mark has commercials for Willowbrook on TV and the radio. He is very entertaining and I love the way he teaches the bible. He gets you very involved and mixes history with the "reading" lesson. He is very pro active, hyper, and lots of humor its not a heavy down pour of church church money money.. Its more about community, love and togetherness. I grew up in a very small church called Trinity United Church which is now Trinity Community Church. Having 100 people attend on a Sunday is a good day. Mark would wonder if he didn't see the snow drifts or if something else big happened that he missed if there were only 100 people at Willowbrook. Between Willowbrook Main Campus and the almost 1 year old Willowbrook At Madison (which I attend) there are thousands. I always thought since I attended three small churches prior that I would be lost in the massive church. Willowbrook at Madison probably has 200-400 guests on some Sundays. But I don't feel lost at all. I feel like I can go to Mark, or Pastor Stone, or Elizabeth, Jennifer, or our site Pastor Kevin at Willowbrook at Madison and ask them anything. I am sure they would give me their shirt off their back. They might not know my first name. Elizabeth and I have joked about my facebook saying Bella so that's probably what she knows me by. But they would. When I go to church at Willowbrook at Madison I watch Pastor Mark on a big HD projected screen and again I am okay with that it doesn't bother me or take away from it at all (sorta like watching Nascar on TV if you were there in person you wouldn't have AS good a view LOL) I love bringing people to the church not just doing what the bible says to do but just because I would love for everyone to experience the wonderful things I experience. A few people have started attending because I brag on Willowbrook so much. I love that. When Willowbrook at Madison was being built the stage didn't have carpeting. Pastor Kevin asked us to go up to the stage and write down names of people I pray for or who I think are lost and would love to find a home. I wrote down Betty and Mike. Betty was attending Catholic Mass in AL and KY but I still prayed for her and Mike because they are on an amazing journey with the Army Life and parenting. Right before Mike deployed him and Betty attended Willowbrook and decided to have their baby dedicated to the church. I think they can tell you for themselves it was like being with family and it made me feel so good that day. Betty and Mike fell in love with Willowbrook the same way I had. Even if Betty was really into catholicism. How can you not love Willowbrook or Pastor Mark? Ok maybe to each their own LOL. I just think about the day I wrote their names (and a few others) on that stage... to be covered in carpet and never seen again and the impact just writing a name has and praying. Anyways I don't think that is what the DOT is about. What are my views on Religion. I am Christian but I would love to study and know more about other religions. I have friends that are Wiccan and I don't see why you can't believe in both. I have been to synagogue, and since knowing Betty I have learned about the Catholic and Lutheran faiths. Faith is personal it doesn't need a heading unless it helps you to identify with others. Which I don't need. If anyone wants to ask me I can have an hourS long conversation with them LOL. I don't need a shepherd but Mark is my shepherd now. I believe how I follow the Bible is between God and I and Rick and I often leave church and talk about the sermon for hours or days... lately William has been diverting our attention to playing chase at Wilson Lumber through the doors and windows that are on display. We like to share Willowbrook's message but the individual message to us is personal. I was saved when I was 12 at Trinity and I went through Confirmation and I know what it means. I don't think at this time I want to be Baptized again to join Willowbrook but I LOVE going.

My views on Politics? I don't know if I told you would you understand. I am not supporting Obama and never have. I have many times tried to give him the benefit of the doubt and I just feel he isn't for the American Good. I am patriotic and I think to send thousands to put their life at risk you basically should have also done it yourself. You can't be a CEO for a company you have never worked in. At least not a good one! Don't order my loved ones to March and scrub floors unless your willing to do the same. I don't see Obama as this person. I am not Democratic but I do lean on the Republican side even though I am not an actual republican. I don't vote per party I vote per who is good for the job. For example I like Joseph Lieberman but he used to be a democrat. I like Bob Barr Rep of Georgia... and he is in a small party now after leaving the major party. I believe our fore fathers didn't want to be overlords. I think we have gotten out of hand. Let the smaller states govern themselves and the Federal Government oversea us as a whole. I think that is what it was intended for. Once all the states agree on certain laws then they become Federal laws. I do believe *grin* that any state can succeed if they want to. If they find that something has gone terribly wrong. What are you going to say about it big boy if we can defend and financially support ourselves? I think we came as individuals and we COULD if necessary leave as individuals. A good bit of us as American's do not trust politicians to do their job and they SHOW us they can't for example the people leaving the state so they don't have to vote on the budget. Oh no that is so WRONG! Its not your DECISION your a representation of my vote... That's what your elected for that's what your PAID for....If you can't deal with that surrender your pay check to our Soldiers and get the hell out of office. Rick was concerned at one time that he thought I could be a strong conservative Republican like I was raised but now he jokes that I could run a militia lol

I didn't really stay on topic did I? Oh well lol

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

This post isn't meant to Offend anyone or Defend anyone. As I said before my Facebook My Rules! My Days of truth.. So here is the truth whether or not you like it! You can feel free to skip any of them.

As our constitution stands right now there is a separation of church and state. I am not saying I agree or disagree with that just saying my beliefs on Gay Rights are partly based on my beliefs, my family, my values, and of course the foundation and constitution for this country.

My oldest sister is Gay. I have known about it for a long time. I have known more females than males that she has dated or had a relationship with. Yes she has dated and was even married in the past to a male. She was also married to a female.. perhaps not in the eyes of God.. that isn't my judgement or for me to say.

Let me get down to the nitty gritty.

I personally think Marriage is between two people and God the state and government should have NOTHING to do with it. It is vows to your mate and GOD. They definitely shouldn't be making people pay unless the money goes to a church or mission.. oh wait that's not allowed! So the Government collects money because people love each other and want to show that in that way they choose AND they have to vow before God or to whom they worship.. So again why is the government involved?

I was watching an episode of ER years ago when the Gay Resident and her lover had a child. The lover and biological mother of the child died. The Resident (I do believe she is the one with the brace?) had helped raised their child. I say THEIR child because it doesn't matter who biologically is the child's parent right? RIGHT? Anyways when the mother died the parents and family of the mother took away those children from the only other parent they had ever known. I look at this logically the kid just lost their mother and now they are going to pull the child out of the stability of a home and the only other parent they have known because they were not legally married so therefore they have no legal right to the child? So the child can be raised by perfect strangers just because they are related by blood. I don't think that would sit well with me if it were me as the mother.

I spoke to my sister about this and she said she didn't really believe in Gay Marriage legally herself. HOWEVER she did believe that gay people did deserve the same rights... such as custody of children etc. I agree.

I agree even more since things have happened with my sister in the past few years. Her ex husband currently has joint custody of her children. He has no biological right to two of the children (as far as I know).. He didn't help raise the children for the most part. As far as I know they call him Robert... Not dad... Their Nana or Ishe is the person that financially supported them, raised them and was there since birth... not Robert. So if my sister is not able to raise her own children. Which right now she isn't... Then it should be the woman they call Ishe.. That woman and my sister are NO longer in a relationship but she has the right to raise these children she invested in so deeply. Okay so I call the ex husband a crazy asshole who hasn't done a thing for my sister, those boys, or myself. Just lies and manipulation and he is literally crazy in my opinion. Saying things like. If I can't have her no one will to me when she ran away from him... Okay STALKER!

I do believe he uses the boys as a pawn to just have ties to my sister. Right now Ishe is involved in their lives at his will.

So I say I don't believe in Gay Marriage because the bible tells me so heh lol. But I do believe in equal rights. Maybe like England? They have Civil Unions? Why can't there be a happy medium? If not for the people who choose to be gay but to protect the innocent and maybe just provide health care so we as a whole pay taxes for Medicaid and Medicare because they can't be covered under their significant other's insurance... just a thought.

Truly to be separated in church and state there can't be an argument. "They" say the bible says its against what it says and that's the reason its illegal in some states.. Okay so isn't that mixing church and state?

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something

I don't remember when I read this but it was quite awhile ago. Maybe ten years ago? Incase your thinking this book made me Pro Life your wrong I was already pro life. I became Pro Life at the age of 18 after witnessing the miracle of birth for myself. But this did outline it for me and put it into perspective so it made me more Pro Life? Gianna also taught me about my own faith and how pity parties just don't get you anywhere but the people around you aggravated. So other than the bible Gianna Aborted... and Lived to Tell About It Shaped my life more than any other book I have ever read.

Day 16 → of the 30 days of Truth Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 16 → of the 30 days of Truth Someone or something you definitely could live without.

I could have lived without loosing my son. I could have lived without almost the entire year of 2003... just saying.. enough said.

Day 15 → of the 30 days of Truth

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

There aren't too many things that I can't live without because I tried to. I can live without my Coca Cola Addiction I am just not strong willed enough yet. I can live without my computer but it is a anchor for me so I choose not to. I could live without sweets, my husband and almost anything else that is tangible.

I have tried to not be so bluntly honest. I tried to be old fashioned and keep quite like I was raised to be but It didn't help me any and it tortured me. Being so loud, bluntly honest, speaking my mind, speaking before I think--sometimes. Is for the good and for the bad. But I would rather be someone who is honest with themselves and be true as a person to others. Not keeping up with the Jones' (which I have tried) I am just not into how people perceive me. I could give a rats ass if you think I am dirty, messy, perverted, if you don't like me for any reason its your OPINION of me not a FACT... I don't have to prove a damn thing to you because I don't live with you and your not my God. Being approved BY you doesn't get me into heaven any faster... unless your someone who knows someone that knows Pope Benedict j/k So I have to say I can't live without speaking my mind and I have tried.
I have tried to keep my mouth shut when I was in an abusive marriage and someone I looked up to told me you know if you didn't smart off maybe he wouldn't get angry and hit you (Hindsight is 20/20 and now I think WTF!) I would keep my mouth shut and get hit anyways for not speaking. Damned if I do and damned if I don't so if being me is going to cause me to go to Hell then I might as well do it throughly. I know I am not going to hell because I am a faithful person that has confessed my sins and I am saved.

I can't live without God in my life and my faith in him. I can't live without my kids but I supposed I could after I have lived without Mackenzie in my life I am just not the same ME.

I can't live without writing... but I've never tried. I am a poet and a blogger and it comes naturally to want to speak to people.

I can't live without food, water, shelter, love... again but I have never tried to give it up. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...