From July 13, 2007 Myspace Blog

Why?
Current mood: crushed
Category: Life


I haven't spoken to Olenka in a month (a day short) She has replied to emails in Chelley and Denises Mommy Loop. Sent me a private email involving a swap matter in which I let Rick email her the important information just to get a response

In a message dated 6/20/2007 5:59:32 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, rick_army2001@yahoo.com writes:
..> I originally sent your tracking on the 13th. Keep Track yourself!
..>
I am sorry I actually have a life that is not living in front of the computer! You know Children and a husband to keep! 80) BTW You're wife or you whoever the hell that everyone keeps on fwding me all the shit she is sending them! Geesh I thought we were beyond high school! HMM Wonder who will be the next guy Kristy screws while Rick is away HMMMMMMMMMMMMM I got the answer I needed now Go and actually be a MOM ya know the one that takes care of her child and doesn't sit in front of a Computer all the damn day.... LOSER **** off

I have made it a point not to reply to anything and to a certain point ignore everything she says at least to the point where I try to keep it to myself. Or vent to Rick or someone i know doesn't mind listening. At least I think so. My question is for my True friends who say they care when Olenka spouts her mouth off about Bullshit why doesn't someone tell her to shut up! Stick up for me or something? Why don't my friends say come on just leave her alone.

Bella's Tid Bits

- update on mommy ~ I am feeling quite negative and blah today.


update on kids or pregnancy ~ Alex ~ He's taking evening classes haven't heard much from him after numerous phone calls that haven't been returned.
James ~Don't ask LOL
Skylar ~ She's been pretty good. We go into a store and she has to pee a million times and that's been frustrating.

update on s/o ~ 21 days & Counting until he has to go. Its starting to get stressful for me. I am afraid of driving and dealing with everything but at the same time looking forward to many things.
Our Animal Babies ~Friday we went groceries, took the cats to the vet to get shots... Lightning is 11.13 lbs and Tinker Bell is 3.15 lbs & then came home and relaxed had dinner outside on our porch. I tried to get the animals out in our backyard. My 10 year old Lightening Loves being outside she is prone to eating grass, and just laying out. I brought my Cockatiel's bird cage out so Lily could enjoy some fresh air and decided I might as well clean up around her. So that made her happy. Then our new kitten Tinker bell who is 2 months old didn't like it outside and just squalled. Skylar has a play climby thing out back & a small whale pool. Skylar was playing in her pool and got out to talk to me. Lightening climbed in just to her front paws and drank some water. It started to Thunder so Rick put the Whale thing on top of the Lil Tykes thing. Lightening climbed in the climby thing and was chilling out I took a picture of her on my phone and then she got down. But then she wanted to climb on top of the climby thing and ended up poking holes in the pool silly bad cat!. Lily learned how to open the doors on her cage great! She might end up lunch for one of our two cats!
How was your weekend? ~ We went and registered for our wedding at Target. Yeah so what its in 2 and half years lol we got a twenty dollar gift card out of it lol. Rick got a hair cut. Someone mentioned learning how to drive yesterday... I am 28 and just now learning how to drive. Given the opportunity should I say. My husband deploys in 21 days and so I better know how to drive in the next three weeks. I asked to go Yard Selling this morning and he just kinda was not interested. So I brought it up when someone in the group mentioned it as a good excuse to go driving LMAO. YEAH buddy. Then we passed a dollar general going out of business woot woot! Got gobs of good stuff there.

How was my day?

Well for one I wonder what the heck is going on in London! LOL. For those who haven't heard they found
Glasgow Story Link Two failed Car Bombs in London
Someone mentioned learning how to drive. I am 28 and just now learning how to drive. Given the opportunity should I say. My husband deploys in 21 days and 22 hours so I better know how to drive in the next three weeks. I asked to go Yard Selling this morning and he just kinda was no interested. So I brought it up when someone in the group mentioned it as a good excuse to go driving LMAO. YEAH buddy. Then we passed a dollar general going out of business woot woot! Got gobs of good stuff there. So that was great and came back home to cook lunch then my step son goes to work at 2 then I get to get out of the house again :C)

As for yesterday we went groceries & then came home and relaxed had dinner outside on our porch. I tried to get the animals out in our backyard. My 10 year old Lightening Loves being outside she is prone to eating grass, and just laying out. I brought my Cockatiel's bird cage out so Lily could enjoy some fresh air and decided I might as well clean up around her. So that made her happy. Then our new kitten Tinker bell who is 2 months old didn't like it outside and just squalled. Skylar has a play climby thing out back & a small whale pool. Skylar was playing in her pool and got out to talk to me. Lightening climbed in just to her front paws and drank some water. It started to Thunder so Rick put the Whale thing on top of the Lil Tykes thing. Lightening climbed in the climby thing and was chilling out I took a picture of her on my phone and then she got down. But then she wanted to climb on top of the climby thing and ended up poking holes in the pool silly bad cat!. Lily learned how to open the doors on her cage great! She might end up lunch for one of our two cats!

Lightening and Tinkerbell

Lightening and Tinker Bell went to the vet. Lightening needed boosters. It was Tinkerbell's first visit. We got Lightening a new carrier and Tinkerbell got the hand me down. Lightening weighs 11 lbs and Tinker is 3 lbs and a few ounces. Tinker goes back at the end of July for a booster... The vet clinic is moving so I gotta give them time

Talking to our Children about what's in the news?

The groups are busy bustling with news of the Pregnant Ohio woman killed by her Police Officer Boyfriend, A Famous wrestler found dead in his Georgia home in an alleged murder suicide,(new reports said he sufficated his wife and son and hung himself) and of course our Troops. So when our kids are asking questions what do you say? How do you explain to your 5 year old son that his "Hero" is dead and it looks like he killed his son and wife. I was speaking to someone in another group about the topic and I was adamant that my children will not idolize or think any celebrity or someone in the spot light is a hero. That soldiers, EMT's, Police officers, Fire fighters are hero's. Then I bit my lip saying a hero killed his pregnant girlfriend. Some hero? Also its a challenge to reinforce into our children that the bible says though shall not kill and our troops are over there killing and being killed. How do we face that challenge? Or just the fact that at times our Troops are faced with killing innocent children. Who are your kids hero's? When you talk about hero's to your kids what do you talk about?
Pro Wrestler Chris Benoit Found dead with his wife and 7 year old son. 

 Click here: ABC News: Autopsy ID's Body of Pregnant Ohio Woman

A New friend

I have been playing myspace tag with a new wife in the area. Her name is Jess and she is from Il she has a baby girl and a baby on the way. Her husband is overseas and she hopes to join him soon. Both were great. We met out at the pool and hung out for a few hours then went to a bird show. I had a good day :) It was nice to finally meet Jess who already knew Christa and Rox :)

Culture? Some would say

I never thought of myself as a terribly sheltered child. Although my adopted mother was very mindful of what I was allowed to see, to have, or who I was allowed to be friends with. When I met Adam he was a bit older than me well he certainly had alot more life experience than I had. He introduced me to so many new things. Star Wars, Halloween, Phantom of the Opera. Those are three of his true loves in his movies. Those who knew Adam he loved movies so deep it would run in his soul. He wanted to be a special effects artist and a writer. Both of which I think he was talented at. He never used his dreams for good use. A true loss to all of us, In my opinion. Its funny I see things now 4 years after he passed away that he would have LOVED! The Phantom of the Opera Movie, Transformers Movie, Freddy Vs Jason (even if he had a distaste for it in a way I still think he had a love for it), and also the Superman Returns movie. Of course the Star Wars Prequels I am sure I would have loved to hear his stories about these. These things have now become my favorites and I hope to pass them on to Mackenzie one day. I love Phantom of the Opera. The music and the story is beautiful. I watched Phantom of the Opera with him once the horror version with Robert Englund (From Nightmare on Elm Street). But never the true version of the movie or theater production. I think in alot of ways Adam thought of himself as sorta of a phantom. I still have his sketch book I would love to share. Perhaps I will make a scrapbook for Mackenzie about his father. That would be nice. While I still have these memories of them. Adam and I had a bad relationship almost from the go of things but I think in alot of ways i have justified his part in the wrong doing to myself due to sickness or whatever I don't know for sure but thats the only way to make peace with it. As far as my wrong doing I am not innocent. I have not made peace with myself. However I have learned from my experience and will not repeat the mistakes of the past. Thats the only way to make it right.

This Wraps up Vacation Bible School

Last night was the final night of Vacation Bible School. Skylar had a blast she really enjoyed herself all week. She sang anthems, songs, did a bible verse, bible stories, crafts and "P.E." I think the church we attended is really precious. I got so many compliments on Skylar's behavior and took a ton of videos and a few pictures. It was a great experience.

military kids VS civilian kids♥

1. A Civilian child usually dances around or talks during the National Anthem. A military child stands quietly with his hand over his heart.

2. A civilian child sees race. A military child sees diversity.

3. A civilian child has a best friend in his hometown. A military child has a best friend on almost every continent.

4. A civilian child sees only the plane flying over. A military child not only can identify the type of plane flying but knows someone who works on them.

5. A civilian child smells something nasty and yells "eeewwww, what's that smell?". A military child smells something nasty and yells "M.O.P.P. 4! M.O.P.P. 4!!"

6. A civilian child sees a person in uniform. A military child can tell you what branch he's in and what his rank is.

7. A civilian child thinks home is where the heart is. A military child knows home is where the military sends you.

8. A civilian child lives for tomorrow and what it might bring. A military child lives for today for tomorrow Daddy might get called away again.

9. A civilian child gets to kiss mommy and daddy goodnight each night. A military child sometimes has to kiss a picture of daddy or mommy goodnight.

10. A civilian child talks on the phone for fun. A military child lives for the 15 minute phone calls once a week.

11. A civilian child can read and write in English. A military child can read and write in acronym.

12. A civilian child says "good-bye". A military child says "see you later".

13. A civilian child gets to see things other kids would love to see. A military child gets to see things world leaders would love to see.

14. A civilian child will probably go to the same school his entire life. A military child will probably change schools every 2 years.

15. A civilian child might rarely leave his hometown for anything other than vacation. A military child will rarely see his "hometown" for anything other than vacation.

16. And finally...a civilian child supports our soldiers. A military child is a soldier.



The next time you say a prayer for our troops, please say a prayer for their families, especially their children back home that are trying to be strong. If you don't stand behind our troops, feel free to stand in front of them. Repost as "Military kids vs. Civi kids"

Civilian Wives VS. Military Wives

You complain that your boyfriend/ husband has worked late all week and have barely seen him.

*I look forward to the two weeks a year we spend together.

You complain because he doesn't call you enough.

*My heart is thankful for the 15 second phone call I got last Tuesday in the middle of the night!

You whine to you friends about how much you miss him already because he is on a two day trip with his parents.

*I haven't seen him for 7 months now

You don't feel like making love tonight because you are too tired.

*We will stay up all night because we don't know when it will be the last time.

Your boyfriend/husband belongs to you.

*Mine belongs to the government.

Your boyfriend/husband is training for his game next weekend.

*My boyfriend/husband is trained to kill. (and we find that romantic!)

It's just not practical for you to drive an hour to see him every weekend during school.

*He spends $700 dollars on a plane ticket just to see me 2 days!

You hate hanging up the phone when talking to him.

*My heart breaks because I won't talk to him for another 10 days.

You complain that he doesn't take enough time out of his life for you.

*My man has to get up in the middle of the night to talk with me because of the time difference. He doesn't complain.

Your man is in a bad mood from not sleeping much this week.

*My man ran 10 miles this morning at 4 in the morning and has a full day of work ahead of him. He's lucky if he gets a few hours of sleep!

Your boyfriend/husband can call in sick when he is tired or not feeling well.

*My man works no matter what!!

You don't trust him so you follow him places to see if he is telling the truth.

*I have no choice but to trust him and even then I trust him with my life.

You don't like him talking so sexually with his friends.

*My boyfriend/husband has to chant it in drills.

You check your phone, see you missed a call from him, and decide to call him back when you aren't so busy.

*I see a missed a call and cry, because I don't know when he can call again.

You might save a cute voice message from him.

*I save them all b/c it helps me to remember what his voice sounds like.

Being apart for a month to you seems daunting.

*A month apart for me is a wish that can't come true.

You wouldn't change schools to be close to him.

*I have to move to another country to be with him.

You have every part of him memorized.

*I study pictures so I don't forget what he looks like.

You take your time together for granted.

*We don't!!

Your cell phone bill was high this month from talking too much.

*He pays 20 cents a minute to call me..when he CAN call.

You love that fancy necklace he bought you/

*I refuse to take his dog tags off, and not a day goes by that I dont have them on...

You say you miss him.

*Times that by 20!


I really wish people would understand how hard it is for us girls who love someone in the military. You can't even begin to understand how much it hurts to be away from someone you love. To worry if he's eaten, slept..if he's sick, injured or worse...You also can't understand how amazing it feels to finally be with them. Every meeting feels like the first! And for all those girls out there thinking, "Well it was his choice to join." You are right, it was. But at least he had the balls to join!! And it's guys like him that keep us free and safe while we're at war. It might have been his choice to give up staying at home with the ones he loves, but it's that choice that makes him our hero and gives you the freedom of speech... He is America's hero! So, maybe now, you won't take your time with your man for granted, maybe you'll understand a little more how good you have it, because AT LEAST he is safe and in your arms.

Vacation Bible School

Christa before she moved suggested I take Skylar to her church for Vacation Bible School. Christa and Rachel attend church at this one place. So for the past three nights Skylar has been enthusastic, learning, excited and well behaved. She loves doing it. They are doing a theme called Game day Central. They learn verses, sing songs with dances, doing P.E. and a bunch of other things its greatest thing. I am sure Rachels totally tired. She's been helping out in her son's class who is also with Skylar! What a blast pictures and movies coming soon!

Ignorance is Bliss

I posted a bulletin on my myspace page. YES I am pro life and proud of it!


So its propaganda so maybe it is! But its my belief. There are only 1% of reasons you could justify an abortion. So anyways I got some heat from my bulletin featuring some Late Term Abortion Photographs. If its disturbing it should be! I properly labeled it I am 99.9% against abortion Are you? Graphic Pics! No one had to open it but someone did and sent me a message. Telling me if I am going to use her myspace for my political agenda then she will remove me. I promptly removed her instead. No loss on my part. I don't feel like I am very friendly with her anyways. A RL friend of mine posted the same bulletin and so did other "Myspace" Friends. My RL friend got heat for it as well. Oh well neither of us really cared. I didn't even care enough to argue my point. I am NOT using her Myspace. WTF does Abortion have to do with Politics last time I checked it was more Religously fueled than Politics. Doesn't matter In my opinion she never had to open it sorry to rain on her parade that I sent her some disturbing pictures. PFFT. Ah I have lost some interest in this topic. Since I was so fueled up in the past two days now I am cooled down and on to bigger and better fish to fry :C)

Horoscope for 6/18

Horoscopes for Monday,
June 18, 2007


Aries
Be careful not to react too soon to someone's urgent cries for help today. Chances are, this is a textbook case of 'crying wolf' -- or this person may have a very distorted sense of what 'urgent' really means. Either way, he or she wants attention but doesn't really need help -- and you don't have time to deal with this sort of immaturity right now. Let the drama distract someone else. You have real obligations and responsibilities to take care of.

Happy Fathers Day Rick

Rick had a pretty good fathers day I think :) We went to Big Spring park for awhile and listened to some Jazz. There was a duck not feeling well. It bothered me enough to leave. I don't know if she didn't feel good, injured, or was trying to lay eggs but she definately wasn't well. Then there was some dead fish in the fountains and THAT bothered me because I was so proud of this park. Oh well Then home for some backyard fun. Skylar and I got him a nice frame.

Fergie Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
[Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Lindsey Haun Broken

Artist: Lindsey Haun Lyrics
Song: Broken Lyrics
Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky
Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around, so open and exposed
I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat you up
Heaven knows that getting scars
Only makes you who you are
Only makes you who you are
No matter how much your heart is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Better days are gonna find you once again
Every piece will find its place

When you're broken, when you're broken

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken
Oh, when you're broken
When you're broken
When you're broken

Parents Night Out

Every Month the Child Care on post has Parents Night Out. Rick and I went to go see Spiderman 3. Pretty good movie not one of the best. Of course Venom is one of my favorite bad guys. Bruce Campbell is seemingly the Nerd God. Sam Raimi is probably alot like his brother Ted.. In this movie Sam directed and wrote the screen play and Ted acted. Ted was in SeaQuest DSV and played Nerd 101! LOL So if Bruce Campbell is in every Sam movie at some point my guess is the nerds worship their god lol. Not a bad actor maybe just bad roles?
I did love the effects made me a bit thoughtful of the past.
We went to a bar and I sipped my LIT but didn't drink it like usual because I am so tired. Rick had a craving for ice cream so we brought home Dairy Queen.

Quote

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"I'm thankful for my health, my childhood, and spell check.
I'm thankful for a new hot-water tank and how we no longer have to coordinate our dishwashing with our bathing.
I'm thankful for the wide range of flavors potato chips come in - mesquite barbecue in particular.
For platform shoes.
For coincidences.
I'm thankful for all the people who ever left, in those dishes by the cashier, a penny I later used.
That I don't know everything that people say behind my back.
I'm thankful I was born after the advent of indoor plumbing, and after the popularity of corsets.
I'm thankful for insect repellent, nonstick pans, and Velcro.
I'm thankful that people in real life don't spontaneously break into song like they do in musicals,
and that some weeds look like flowers,
and that at the end of a really bad day there is sleep.
I'm thankful for maybe."
- Adapted from Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life, by Amy Crouse Rosenthal

Horoscope

A gulf may continue to grow between your head and your heart. You may be quite sure of yourself and know what you want to do, but sensitivity to someone else's needs prevents you from forging ahead with your plan. There is no need to change your mind about what you want. Live with the dilemma for now until you find a bridge across the chasm.

Surrounded by Love and Peace

Trying to bring out the peaceful and happy side and think postively. I've had alot of Earth Angels in my life I think God brought them to me and they fullfilled their job during the time I need them. I lost two friend this week. One I just don't think is a healthy relationship and the other had to move away. The one who I didn't have a healthy relationship maybe she's one of those Angels she had her presence in my life when I needed her now I don't need her so much (I HOPE!) The one that moved away she's a saint and a blessing for me introducing me to my new life and taking me in her wings. Now the baby birds time to fly. Rick's leaving me soon for a short time compared to a lifetime (THINKING POSTIVE) This little birds gotta learn to fly on her own some. Sure she's gonna have a few crash landings but she can fly! I believe in it! Today I wanted to go for a walk so Rick, Skylar and I went for a short walk. Shorter than planned we stopped near the end of our street. Two people who are in his unit live there. Across the street from each other. One I call her Redstone's Claudia Joy (Army Wives Reference)her husbands been deployed multiple times in their marriage and she just seems to have alot of life experience one to look up to and learn from. Anyways we stopped there. Skylar kept herself occupied with the twin girls her age. I didn't know it then but I needed that conversation with Linda. She aint that old but I betcha she is wise in some ways :C)
Maybe this bird even though she's just stretching her own wings can bring some help to someone else.
So on to this little bird (myself) to stretch her wings. Get to practicing and spread her wings out and fly with just her little shadow following behind :)