So sleep deprived

I am so sleep deprived after weeks since a designer made for me the header on my blog I noticed it is misspelled and that's after we played around with the spelling for awhile. Haha
I am so sleep deprived Monday and Tuesday have now ran in together and I made some Tuesday blog posts... oh well I got a head start.

William woke up at 3 am. I think I heard Rick coming upstairs but what woke me up was my cat Cocoa meowing loudly. I am not used to her being upstairs then my body sensed that Rick wasn't in bed so I got up to pee and go find Rick who was laying in William's room because William was wide awake. Apparently Rick went downstairs to get some cold medicine (he has sleep apnea and he is an insomniac) So I offered to stay up with William. William really wanted to go downstairs so I laid on the couch (caught up on Jersey Shore lol) and let him play I was hoping he would lay down on his nap spot and go back to sleep but no such luck. I put William to bed at 5:30 and I told Rick to wake up (he had to get ready for work) and I told him to get Skylar ready for school and to wake me up at 7 when he went to work. So he woke me up at 6:30 to tell me Skylar had a stomach ache and wanted to stay home which I said was okay. So when I got up between 6:30 and 7 William was awake again so I just laid on the couch and the kids played while I dozed in and out of sleep. My phone rang at 8:30 from a text message and I was busy ever since. I am so tired!

Remember-able Moments

I haven't had much time to blog but a few weeks ago Rick was backing up and backed up my Honda into our wrought iron Mailbox and scratched her back end and dented her pretty good. I wasn't even sure I wanted to pay the premium to get her fixed (her body looks great before the accident but the inside is trashed). We ended up going to get the estimate I told the guy my trunk wasn't opening so he offered to fix that as well as my drivers side door that wouldn't open from the inside... We paid for the extra jobs but USAA paid for the dent repair and the rental. We were at Enterprise getting our rental and I found out my license was expired so we had to use Rick's license then we drove to the DMV to get my license removed... Its official I've had my license for four years officially and it expired the day before my birthday..... in April.... OOPS! Thank you Enterprise for alerting me before the Police had to remind me to renew HAHA!. So it looks like my first renewal was as remember-able as getting my license for all of you who know what a journey that was!!

By the way Rick and I have always said the next car we buy will be a Ford... big enough for our entire family. They picked us up from Joe Hudson Collision in I think it was a Ford Edge- it could have been a Flex? It had luxury amenities including a camera that you can see behind you when you backed up, a voice activated GPS and more. OMG nice! We ended up renting a Mazda 5 though and it was a pretty sweet ride and about 10 k less than a Ford Suv... Who knows what we will get when we are in the market for it in 2 years. I think Ford is the more responsible choice though.

Getting Behind

William makes it difficult to do any sort of typing on the computer since he has an angry email or two he wants to write before I get to type anything, plus climbing on my desk, opening up my CD ROM thing... exiting out of what I am doing or going back to Google.com so he can see a picture of himself. So I have gotten behind on my blogging because the only time I have gotten to blog is while he is napping or sometimes at night if we aren't having family time which we really TRY to do. Evenings are just hectic in general around here.. Anyways. I am behind on my blogging, on my consignment, on my scrapbooking, on pretty much everything...

So I guess what I am going to try to do is squeeze in some blogging and save it as a draft for whatever day I want it to go out so I am not a blogging fool when he DOES take a two hour nap at the RIGHT time (like now is a great time) 8 am not so much 12 o'clock not the best time either... So I will do the meme's especially when I am inspired and have them preset to go out on the proper days. I hopefully wont suck so bad I won't forget to visit those who I've linked to. As for random blogs about daily life I will try to squeeze those in there when I can. *sigh*... oh AND I have missed two weeks of church and the sermons aren't posted online yet. EEK help me!

Oh and Rick bought me Sims Medieval for an early Birthday Present so I am going to be hooked on that for a little while.

Military Monday's Thankfulness Edition

I am sure thankful that both of my "soldiers" are home this year. I know my husband is home potentially forever. But its not just the military I fear will take him back but thankful to know that my family is safe this year. A pretty healthy (we just got over fighting a bad cold) and happy family all stateside this year is a major milestone for me. Its the first time we are all on one continent at the same time. Even if there is miles apart between Alex, Mackenzie and the rest of us. I am truly grateful for the oceans that aren't! It also makes me appreciate all those who do have loved ones overseas. No matter the continent or country... Korea, Afghanistan, Iraq, Germany or Anywhere.

My family or Rick's family of origin may be away or on another continent. They are all close to my heart. I have faced some challenges dealing with my families and my beliefs. This year my mother was alone for the holidays perhaps I hope she was with friends that love her. I wish I could be there for her. In any case I hope she had the best possible holiday I wish her the best. This week she is also celebrating her 54th birthday. I hope she is blessed & has many many more. My heart is troubled with our families but it makes me hold my family of choice (Rick and the kids) closer.

I cherish my friends. Last year I spent my Thanksgiving with a complete feast with my neighbors. They are from Texas so they are away from family living here for the first time last year. We prepared a feast and shared it with this year. I told them this year I would dog sit for them so they could go home for the holiday. I told them we were perfectly happy eating at Ruby Tuesday for Thanksgiving due to the nearly month long Cold virus. They ordered us a feast and it was a total surprise! It was beautiful and yummy! I am grateful for the Culley family for taking care of us.

Bailey sulking he knew his mommy & daddy were leaving







William waiting on food



Skylar. I actually didn't dress them up this year. Skylar wanted to wear her dress from Valentines day and it was extra warm till actually the day after Thanksgiving the thermometer tanked by at least 20 degree's

James & the spread. So we ended up with Turkey, Ham, Sweet Potatoes, Mashed Potatoes, Dressing, Green Beans and Corn which were left over from Wednesday night at KFC lol., Biscuits and Skylar had Apple Juice Wine (100% juice), and I had Moscato. The boys had their wine coolers or soda. They bought it for us in return for baby sitting their two hermit crabs and Bailey. Of course you know how Hermit crabs are they cause all kinds of destruction and ruckus... What a pain! Just kidding!

William has found Skylar's headset from her visit to Libby Lu a few years ago and loves them lmao.



Is it true when kids are quiet there is something wrong?

have been putting off dental surgery for years. When my dentist (who I just LOVE) told me to do it. My husband was deployed and I only had to wait a few months for him to get home. Well when he got home I got pregnant so I couldn't have any dental work done while I was pregnant. So it got put off. Finally I had to get a new referral and the surgeon went into retirement *ugh*... Then we retired and didn't have dental insurance... Now we have insurance so I made some calls... Actually only one to find the right place that took my insurance. GREAT! They didn't even need a referral from my dentist they will do all the leg work. How often do you get that?




So I made my long awaited appointment. Called my husband and decided to investigate why my 15 month old was so quiet...

I was looking everywhere for him. I am 99.9% sure that anything he can get into is mostly baby proof although he finds ways.... Like climbing on the dining room table and opening baby gates.... But the baby gate has a bungee cord. The other baby gate is just around the TV so I would have saw that... No baby... Anywhere. I freaked for a minute. Hung up on Husband and there William in his bouncy chair from his infant swing next to the couch, He was sound asleep.... When toddlers are quiet they aren't always in trouble. Sometimes they just pull off their PJ's and find a place to zonk out.

My encounter with a working woman

So the area of town I live in is only known for the school shooting that happened last year. A 15 year old shot and killed a 14 year old boy and now he is going to be tried for as an adult. I live off of County Line Road and it literally means that its the end of the county. So once upon a time I am sure this was 99% farm land in the last 10 years anyways. Now of course where there is farms failing there are developers ready to eat the profit. Insert my house. Well on the major road off of County Line is the road that leads to the airport ... Rick, the family, and I were driving along and we saw a woman very thin. I could see almost every bone in her chest and arms, very tanned, long hair and she was wearing little to nothing. We just kinda snickered at her and I figured she was looking for some Meth. Well Rick just called and said he saw the same lady flagging down cars on the side of the road. There are NO houses in this area its industrial, hotels, the airport, and other businesses. So I said well maybe I better just ask the police what's up. I called the city dispatch and she had saw the same lady and described her to me but told me I didn't have the right dispatch I had to call Huntsville dispatch because the lines are drawn real weird around here. I called them and they said nope that's the cities dispatch. So I called her back and she told me to call someone else. Then he told me to call another person and finally they said they would keep an eye out. I mean there is nothing they can do but its close enough to my house and around too many empty buildings to NOT be concerned. So I had to giggle at my working woman and trying to be nice to the police to tell them about our little encounters with her and the fact vehicles are always going behind the old liqueur store near here. When's the last time you were a good citizen and what did you do?

its Stories.... Its love says my seven year old

We were driving around and I am a bit facinated by Cemetery's. I guess its all the trips I went with my guardian to see her mom at the cemetery and our friends at the cemetery. My guardian's mother, step mother and evetually her husband and father's headstones were there in a mausoleum and in front of the garden there we rows of children most of them often unvisited. There were older cemetery's where the headstones are from the last century. So I have been facinated for some time with them. The other day we were just driving around kinda looking for Yard Sales. We passed a cemetery. So we circled through it. The first headstone that caught our eye was a baby. Then another one was a Navy Servicemember that died during Vietnam. Then one was a plot circled in stone with Angel's and John Deer Tractors. A plaque about Grandfathers was also there along with one about if Tears could build a stair way... I got out of the car to take a closer look and I said he must have been a farmer or something. Rick goes its all sad these Wives in Waiting, I said I am all interested in the unique stories. Skylar said its about LOVE. .... How true!

Learning How to Bend

What song is stuck in your head this week?

Learning How to Bend by Gary Allan. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvfJb10oc0M




I have had some much worry over what could have been turned into regret. So much fear that I didn't make some of the right choices. Trying to remember to be thankful for what I DO have. I am asked, will you miss having a baby? No I won't miss having a baby. If I spend too much time missing a baby I won't enjoy the time I do have. Before I know it he will be seven with a sassy mouth that never wants to be home. Rick and I were overwhelmed just how fast its been lately. 17 months ago I found out I was pregnant. Over 6 months ago William was Christened and now I am planning his first birthday! Time to remind myself again to slow down and smell the roses a LITTLE longer. I know when to relax and just pay attention but maybe not enough?

I often wondered since we had to quick hurry and buy this house was it the right choice for our family due to Rick not having a job to pay for the mortgage next month... Then I am reminded it was in all God's master plans to introduce me to my neighbor because my life wouldn't be the same without them. Neither would be Skylar's (we are already deciding to get a plot of land with 4 houses so when Skylar and Aidan get married they will be a few steps away LOLOL)

My church is doing wonderful things in my life and there is a reason why I started going there a year ago. I could go on and on but I am learning how to bend and let Rick in. I can learn to pray. I can learn to let Rick try to do things and work with him. Team work makes dreams work :)

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I'm still learning how to pray

Trying hard not to stray

Try to see things your way

I'm still learning how to pray

I'm still learning how to trust

It's so hard to open up

And I'd do anything for us

I'm still learning how to trust



Chorus:

I'm still learning how to bend

How to let you in

In a world full of tears

We'll conquer all our fears

I'm still learning how to fly

I wanna take you higher

I'll be there till the end

I'll be your lover and your friend

I'm still learning how to bend



I'm just trying to understand

It's all in someone else's hands

There's always been a bigger plan

But I don't need to understand



Chorus:

I'm still learning how to bend

How to let you in

In a world full of tears

We'll conquer all our fears

I'm still learning how to fly

I wanna take you higher

I'll be there till the end

I'll be your lover and your friend

I'm still learning how to bend



I'll be there till the end

I'll be your lover and your friend

I'm still learning how to bend

I'm still learning how to bend

I'll be there till the end

I'm still learning how to bend

"Not Me Monday"

 It wasn't me that HAD to have the Shark Steam Mop and I am sadly disappointed in it and would sell it for about $40 to anyone who wanted it LOL.

 
I should have gotten the Hoover!

It wasn't my child who was banging it on the floor mopping his bathroom with it. When I tried to explain you use it like when you steam clothes with an iron that he had never ironed clothes before. 22 years old and never used an iron? Say WHAT? I looked at Rick and said your in BIG trouble!

Speaking of my feelings

Never make someone your priority when you remain their option.

In the past few months I have come to an ephimany. I realized how much I've grown and changed for the better. How much happier I am with my life and that I am finally at a stable ground.

I can think more clearly now.

Some people have disappointed me. I feel like some of these people just can't stand to see me happy. They want me to wallow in their own disappointment and hard ships. True friends and family that really cares should be the type to have unconditional love and support. Not just when they want to be fair weathered. I am done with that.

Since the recent events have happened I have decided I was going to clean out my closet. I shrug off those people that can only critize me. Those who only have negative things to say to me. Those who seem to have been my life long friends but only count on Bella when times get hard. Bella isn't your free therapist.

I am tired of those friends who only talk to me when times are rough for them and expect me to drop everything to be there for them but when I need an ear or some advice either they blow me off or only talk down to me.

I am tired of those friends who think they can treat me like however they feel because I've known them a life time. I am sorry that no longer cuts it. If your the kind of friend that wants to bring drama into my life then you will be disappointed just as quickly by my lack of interest. If your a true friend I will be there for you when your having a bad day but YES I expect the same in return.

Don't call to only talk about yourself, bitch about your spouse or your life, Don't call me just to find out how so and so is... if you want to know call them yourself. Oh yeah incase you didn't take the hint I get it you like what you bought yourself I don't need to hear everyday about how much money you spend and then the next minute the lack of money you have.

Finally if any of this offends you then I am sorry if you are a TRUE friend then you know that I am a bluntly honest person. I come off like a bitch. I am who I am love me or hate me. I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. Accept me, love me, be my friend for who I am. Who I am is honest, loyal, thoughtful, giving, and real. If you can't take that then find someone that can be there for you during your melt downs, during your pity parties, someone that will be willing to take your trap. I am not into it and I don't need to feel like people constantly ditch me and question why people don't like me.

A telemarketer is having a bad day when

When they call constantly sometimes their end doesn't answer sometimes our end doesn't answer its ALWAYS unknown number unknown caller. They claim they are the visa and master card people. Rick being the person he is has sat there and listened to them for at least 10 minutes. That was several days ago. I decline politely every time I talk to them but the phone calls are getting ridiculous so I just told dude look you call at least twice a day and we've been nice and talked with you. We said no so please take my number off your call list. He said well I am speaking to you now and I said well you talked to my husband and I say no please take my number off your calling list. Hey it could be all in my head but as I hung up I could swear he told me to F off lmao..

Clean House

I've been watching Clean House on the Style network all morning and it inspires me. YES I am not a good house keeper. I can do it when I am motivated and when I feel everyone is giving equal effort and really feel bad at the moment for hubby who takes on ALL the crap himself. He deligates chores to James and James likes to give his own ultimatiums about doing chores. This doesn't go over well with me but I am tired of the back lash I get from always going between James and Rick. If Rick wants to take James' back talk then I guess he doesn't care. He doesn't show he cares about taking on the brunt of the housework. He doesn't care that James doesn't have respect. Yeah I am saying it. I mean it and Rick knows how I feel.

I love to be organized and I wish someone would give me the money to completely organize my house. Bookshelves and bookshelves of books and DVD's. Yeah thats my husband's treasure and no I don't feel he should have to get it up. It just needs space which military housing doesn't give. I do like to shop for clothes for Skylar. I don't think I shop for clothes for myself alot but there just isn't room in my closet that I share. I think the kids have a bigger closet than we do. I would love to see Skylar's clothes and toys organized and if i feel I am given adequate room and ability then I would disguard what doesn't fit. A few months ago I had Barbie stuff in the living room but it was well tucked away IMHO so no one would even know its there. Her doll house is thin and sticks in the foyer closet just perfect... well somehow it doesn't anymore :( The rule was that was the only toy allowed in the living room unless she had permission for something else. When she was done with it she was supposed to tell me or James for us to put it away and if she didn't put it away it would be moved to a place where she wouldn't be allowed to play with it. Her bedroom is very cluttered in space. There isn't much space in her room with all the bookshelves and dresser that needs repair. I just feel bad and wished I had help and some expertise on opening it up. Rick and I are at war, he's constantly bringing up purging Skylar's room with her toys because she doesn't play in it because she makes it a mess and being in my condition I just can't clean it up all the time and I am the only one allowed to clean it because no one would do it correctly. Toss here Toss there.. Throw away things I may have spent alot of money on. I think there is nothing wrong with a little girl having alot of dolls, bears, and stuffed animals. Thats what she plays with! But thats one of many of my goals to get our family more organized.

I need your help. Post pictures of how you keep your kids organized and in check. Skylar is 6 and doesn't like to play alot by herself but we are working on it since by August a lot of my time will be taken up by the new baby at least until we get into a groove. Do you limit the amount of dolls and stuff a little girl has? I don't think Skylar has TOOOO MUCH. She didn't have any toys 2 years ago when we moved here.

Army Wives

I was sitting here doing my usual thing and talking to Rick online. His connection wasn't stable so we got interupted a few times. I stumbled across video blogs from Military Wives. Particularly this one She some how got on my Myspace profile when I added Roxie Dean's A Soldier's wife song...

http://www.youtube.com/coldhardbitch85.

On the side where it lets you choose similar video's to watch they had an Army Wives Music Video from the TV Show set to Far Away by Nickelback.

Far Away an Army Wives Music Video

Then of course since I relate mostly to Roxy from the show I clicked on all the Roxy/Trevor Clips. I don't know if its just me but I kept thinking wow she plays the part real well  or is it just me because I see my thoughts in her head. All those troubles, concerns, and such as Trevor deployed. I started to tear up a bit. Shew I don't know if I am going to be able to handle the second season next month of Army Wives. God forbid something happens to Trevor on the show I would be royally pissed! LOL Lifetime would never hear the end of me lmao.

Trevor and Roxy Slipped away Army Wives

Then I found an Army Wives Music video of A Soldiers Wife and it got to me thinking some more... but of course. Between Rachel's Vlog's and my own experiences. I think that the TV does portray some of what we go through to the people who would otherwise have no clue. Believe me there are some out there. There are some Military Wives who still haven't gotten their first clue. Like I have mentioned in previous blogs there are people who tell me man I would love it if my s/o was out of my hair. Yeah sometimes I wish for Rick to get out of my hair but never that far for that long LOL. A deployment is normally NOT a blessing and its not a comforting thing to hear. Maybe its just because Rick and I do enjoy spending ALOT of time together that we don't feel that way. We still haven't gotten past the honeymoon stage and I kinda of hope I never do. But believe me for myself deployment isn't a day that goes by that I say man I am glad hes' not here. I used to be miserable when he was on duty or when he had Casulity Assistance Officer duty. But now I've learned. He can go out for a week or two with training (Pray not as soon as he gets home however lol) He can go out in the field. There won't be a bitch or a gripe from my lips. Anywhere stateside for up to a month is better than this. *sigh* I am just rambling some thoughts. So I will go for now and do some housework. Pray for my husband and Alex's safety. Thankfully they are alive and they will come home.

I signed up for PPP!

So My Buddy Crystal and I are always looking for opportunities out there in he world to make a little extra cash. Plus this is a good way to give me subject matter to post about. So you can find Crystal's blog here .....http://favorite-hello.blogspot.com/ and while your looking around check out her Ebay store Mix of Everything (Scrapbooking, Electronics, Clothes, etc). So enough with the shameless promotion of my friend LOL. This is my first PPP post. What's PPP you ask? Well since I am new to the company I don't have alot of answers for you LOL. But feel free to sign up on the website here https://payperpost.com. From what I understand they give you topics to blog about under there terms and you get paid to post on your blog. So I make a little extra money and entertain my blog friends. So if you happen to see a random post that isn't about deployment or life then feel free to comment and just go on about your way. I rarely get comments anyways. I do so enjoy them though!

So once again I think this Payperpost thing is a good idea and you should check it out if you are an avid blogger. Or just would like to make extra money. Details listed on the site. Crystal and I are going to give it a try and see what we can do with this idea. I hope you keep reading my blog and enjoying my posts. Comments and Suggestions are loved!

If you sign up for PPP or would like your blog added to my blog roll then be sure to notify me. I would love to read all about your world. Especially if your a military wife as well or just a parent experiencing the JOYS of parenting. My interesting include Scrapbooking, Working with Paint Shop Pro, Animals, The military of course I have pride in my husband and step son's jobs. Yes I am a Military "Alpha" Mom as my friend calls me.

CHD Awareness/ Posting for a Fellow Military Wife

I don't post much and I don't want this to seem like an advertisement
to "sell" products. Please indulge me if you can and read.

My husband typed this up for people us to pass around..

As some of you know, or don't know, our daughter, Emily, was born
with a Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) that has required several
evasive surgeries and procedures in her short life of two years. As
a result, Angie and I have become involved with an organization
called the Children's Heart Foundation (CHF).

This organization is based out of the Chicago, IL area, with a newly
formed Ohio chapter in Columbus. The purpose of this group is to
raise CHD awareness and fund research aimed at preventing CHDs, as
well as increase the life expectancy of CHD sufferers.


Angie has worked very hard over the last six months to put together a
CHF Awareness Day with the Columbus Crew. This event is scheduled to
take place 23 Aug 08 at the Crew's home game against Real Salt Lake.
The cost of the tickets is $15 each, and CHF gets $3 for every ticket
that we are able to sell.

To order tickets, you can use the link provided. This takes you to
the Crew website. You may also print out the flyer and send it to
Chris Wilson with Crew customer service. 614-447-CREW

This is very important to us. Even if you are not a soccer/football
fan, please consider buying a ticket. If you cannot, or do not, want
to attend, you can have the tickets sent to us and we will use them
to make sure that every "Heart Kid" that wants to go can, regardless
of whether their family can afford it or not.

We would also like to take some to the cardiac units at Cincinnati
and Columbus Children's Hospitals the week of the game to allow
stressed out parents, grandparents, and siblings a chance to get out
of the hospital for a while and enjoy a great event. Having been
there, Angie and I know how important that can be.

Our address is 105 S Highview Rd Middletown, OH 45044.


Please forward this to any friends, family, coworkers, church
members, business owners, sports fans, basically anyone that you
think might be interested, and ask them to do the same. The more
tickets we are able to sell, the bigger the presence we will be
allowed to have at the game. Also, once you arrive, look for our
tent/table on the plaza and come meet some of the kids and show your
support.


As always, please contact me if you have any questions or would like
more information on the game or the organization.
V/R
g

Thanks! Angela Wrather


Ticket Link:

http://columbus.crew.mlsnet.com/t102/tickets/2008/chf/


Organization link:

http://www.childrensheartfoundation.org/




Thanks from Angela, Greg, Jake and Emily

American Idol

What's up fellow Americans? I can't blame you for not voting for Michael Johns because I don't call either. But the ones that are big voters what did he do wrong? Another great performer goes down the tubes! The biggest shocker I remember was Constantine. Yes I am biased. I love Constantine and I can see why he would rub people wrong because he's cocky and confident but looking at his performances he rocked! He had a good stage presence. I love everyone that has won American Idol but I do think Constantine can very well be an idol in the making. Chris Daughtry also is brilliant but just didn't have the same stage presence I think showed true talent. Chris was another shocking elimination. So what do you think? I guess American Idol is entertainment value.

On another note about American Idol. I watched the "Idol Gives Back Night" and I think one of my dreams is to use my talent of networking and re sourcing and help those in need. I got to thinking when they showed the mobile medical unit in the projects, that I would love to help those who can't find help. I think that's one of the best things I took away from Calhoun. I volunteered for Tallatoona and Tallatoona (http://www.tallatoonacap.org/) was in charge of helping the elderly and needy pay for medication and help with bills when they needed it. I remember one man that lived on a portable trailer on his mother's property and his Epilepsy was so bad. Tallatoona couldn't find help for this man because they would have had to put his income as his parents income. His parents made too much money to qualify. So what was to become of this man? Possibly die from his illness? What would happen to others in a similar situation? I had to reach out to him since I had Epilepsy till 21 and my first husband had died from his. I had to help. I told the lady that worked there and was in charge that he could get help from the Epilepsy Foundation. I gave him the number so he could get help even possibly get on social security. I felt good about my good deed even when the organization I volunteered for turned him down. What better in the world could I make than help people find organizations, churches, and resources to help them when they really need help. I am sure any effort on my part is appreciated.

my day

Today we had Ballet. They took pictures in their costume I will upload them in a minute and resize them for Myspace. So that was crazy and hectic I was unprepared and already stressed before lol. After that I went ahead and headed over to the Child Wise building to meet up with Jess and Mir for the remainder of playgroup and after Playgroup is the Waiting Spouses meeting. The Waiting Spouses meeting went on a little longer than usual. I came home I got to talk to Rick for just a little bit because it was right at bedtime. We were supposed to go to the Botanical Gardens but didn't get to go. I had to go to the bank and deposit a check then since Skylar was so disappointed about going to the Garden I promised her I would take her to the park. I was worried no one would be there. But Talitha and her children were there along with another lady that I met at Playgroup. They left and as they left Pegan and her children showed up. So Skylar got a good bit of playtime in and it was great being able to hang out with the wives.

So many around me seem to put down some of the lifestyle. Not so much being an Army wife but their surroundings. I am the simple girl next door that appreciates her full tank of gas that her husband (and the Army) provide. The fact that I know so many of my neighbors and get to not just know their names but I can also break bread with them and fellowship with them. The nice weather and the spectacular mountain views around me. The fact that I can go to the store and not worry about having two quarters more for a loaf of bread. Skylar gets ballet and loves it. I appreciate what is given to me. Sure he may be underpaid, he may be gone for a length of time. As long as he comes home safe to me its all worth it!

Rick and I are really excited about letting our family grow here in Huntsville. Its a beautiful place.

I saw God Today

Today started out as a bad day. I woke up drained and a little blue. I felt like a rock climber just trying to get a good grip. I am hanging on standing strong but I wanted that GOOD grip. If it was any other day I wouldn’t have gone to Story Time as scheduled today because I had the blues. I knew I had to be there though because my friend Christa is visiting from Georgia. She was supposed to be at the Library. She is staying with my friend Pegan. So we had a few minutes at Storytime and then I went over to Pegan’s for lunch to talk and let the kids play. Pegan’s got two (her oldest was at school), Christa has her two, and then I have my one. I came home just to change Skylar because Pegan didn’t want me to go home yet. I told her I needed some time with James and get to do some spring cleaning. She wanted me to come to the PX, to Dinner then to Shawn’s T-Ball Practice. So I went. First I came home to change Skylar into jeans out of her skirt. On the way home I heard a country song on the way home about a new daddy. "Peeking through the nursery window she’s sleeping like a rock. She’s laying there with my name around her wrist." Something about his miracle baby girl. The song made me think of my husband and how I can’t wait to enjoy the thrill of sharing that new love with him. I know we’ve both experienced that joy before but now I can share it with him. Those beautiful first moments with something so special. He can have an added gift that this is something he wants so much and that he didn’t think you would or could ever again. Truly a Miracle baby. I didn’t think I would ever get the chance again either. I was going to come home and put James to work we are going to do spring cleaning in the kitchen and the next project is to tackle the entire back yard and test out the lawn mower. The grass still hasn’t grown quite yet but the backyard needs to be cleaned and the sandbox taken care of. But Pegan and Christa wouldn’t hear of it so I will be joined them for the rest of the evening I missed Rick today. His internet wasn’t working. I am feeling better. Thanks for loving me so much baby. I hope you slept well. You need your beauty sleep to continue rocking my world lover.

  I just walked down the street to the coffee shop had to take a break I’d been by her side for eighteen hours straight I saw a flower growing in the middle of the sidewalk pushing up through the concrete like it was planted right there for me to see the flashin’ lights, the honkin’ horns all seemed to fade away in the shadow of that hospital at 5:08 I saw God today Chorus: I’ve been to church I’ve read the bookI know He’s here, but I don’t look near as often as I should Yeah, I know I should His fingerprints are everywhere I’d just slow down to stop and stare opened my eyes and man I swear I saw God today I saw a couple walking by they were holding hands Man, she had that glow yeah I couldn’t help but notice she was starting to show it stood there for a minute takin’ the sky lost in that sunset a splash of amber melted in the shades of red Chorus I got my face pressed up against the nursery glass She’s sleeping like a rock My name on her wrist wearing tiny pink socks She’s got my nose, she’s got her mama’s eyes My brand new baby girl She’s a miracle I saw God today I just walked down the street to the coffee shop had to take a break I’d been by her side for eighteen hours straight I saw a flower growing in the middle of the sidewalk pushing up through the concrete like it was planted right there for me to see the flashin’ lights, the honkin’ horns all seemed to fade away in the shadow of that hospital at 5:08 I saw God today Chorus: I’ve been to church I’ve read the book I know He’s here, but I don’t look near as often as I should Yeah, I know I should His fingerprints are everywhereI’d just slow down to stop and stare opened my eyes and man I swear I saw God today I saw a couple walking by they were holding handsMan, she had that glowyeah I couldn’t help but notice she was starting to showit stood there for a minute takin’ the sky lost in that sunset a splash of amber melted in the shades of red Chorus I got my face pressed up against the nursery glass She’s sleeping like a rock My name on her wrist wearing tiny pink socks She’s got my nose, she’s got her mama’s eyes My brand new baby girl She’s a miracle I saw God today<br>


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Maybe Baby Part Two

maybe baby part two
How long does can of formula last you? How much does a can cost you? How old is your formula feeding baby?
Skylar didn't eat baby food. How much baby food does your baby eat?
What about diapers? How many diapers does your baby go through and how much does it cost you for one package of diapers? How old is your baby?
What are some other costs?

Maybe baby?

Maybe Baby?
Rick and I are unsure about having a 5th child to our full house. So while in a discount book store I picked up Maybe Baby? I was thinking this book might help settle some questions in our heads about whether or not we wanted another child. Just reading through the introduction I have found that this book is and isn't what I thought it was. This book is mainly reflecting on the first born child on whether or not to procreate all together. Clearly we have both procreated twice just not together. Just in the forward and first chapter of the book it talks about people who would like to remain Childless by Choice, Childless due to the inability to have children by themselves, and those who have children by whatever decision they make. However I will keep reading the book in hopes I will find some peace that I am looking for and be able to maybe make a decision by the fall when he is home. I also plan on fully preparing him on the financial strain of having a baby. If by chance I cannot breast feed or if I can... I would buy the hospital grade pump and they are about $300, I've tried others' they don't work. If I cannot breast feed he needs to realize how much formula costs we wouldn't more than likely qualify for WIC. Then all the necessities babies need. Since I know we have the emotional part down of parenting one of our concerns is Financial, My physical limitations, His age, His retirement in the near future, the two older children, and also Mackenzie. Its been 19 years since he has had a baby under his wings. When the boys were babies he worked a lot, was in training, deployed... whatever the Army wanted him to. This time he could be here full-time and not miss anything. Props to the boys mother and grandmother for doing it mostly on their own as they were growing up.So one of the things to keep us busy during R&R are going window shopping and seeing how much everything is. Holding Molly my friends newborn, feeding Molly... a trial run of playing house. LOL We can't predict everything like where would the baby sleep (all though I have some idea's)
So this blog can be an open forum for ya'll.
I don't know many childless married couples by choice. But if your married and childless or unmarried and childless by choice. Leave a Comment and tell me why your childless by Choice

If your married or unmarried and unable to get pregnant. Tell me if you aren't going to seek further help in having a baby or would you be one of those childless by choice due to necessity of extraordinary measures. Leave a comment and tell me your story.

If you have children and remarried. Did you or did you not have children with your current spouse why and why not? If you are divorced. If you were to remarry would you consider having children with your future spouse? Leave a comment and tell me why.

For the parents. How did you know you wanted to be parents with your first born? How did you know you wanted the subsequent children after that? Leave me a comment and tell me why.

The book states "They said that people who choose not to have children (as opposted to those who desperately want to have children but can't) opposed to those who desperately want to have children but can't) tend to have better marriages, better fiances, less s tress, and are no more likely to be unhappy in old age than parents." The chapter touches on the way you loose intimacy with your mate because of the stress and exhaustion. I like my marriage where it is for the most part. Would adding another mouth to feed put a strain on my marriage I don't want to deal with? Or would it bring a new level of joy to my marriage? Another fear and reason for my indecisiveness. What do you think?

See where I am getting at? After reading this book and each chapter talks about the different decisions people make and why. As the front cover of the book says 28 writers tell the truth about skepticism, infertility, baby lust, childlessness, ambivalence, and how they made the biggest decision of their lives.

So write me and tell me how you made the biggest decisions of your life.