Have you seen my GoFundMe?

I know everyone and their brother either has a Gofundme or hates a Gofundme.. This one is VERY personal to me...

This one is for the person other than my kids that means the most to me in the world. I know she loves me totally unconditionally and she is my dearest and truest friend, Jennifer.

Jennifer and her husband Chris are totally like the siblings my parents never gave me. My heavenly parent was looking out for me though when he brought them into my life. I love them no different than my family. They mean the world to me and their kids are like my kids. Jennifer's father Frank has been like a father to me. I joke with Jennifer Frank couldn't have dealt with both of us growing up which is why we had to meet as adults. She says of course he would have loved us both. About two years ago something was off with "Dad"/ Frank. He was working at Kroger and he had been working at the Carpet mills in Calhoun and the surrounding area's for years... Jennifer kinda nudged him to go to the doctor and he was diagnosed with Gilosarcoma. Stage 4... very aggressive brain cancer. They gave him initially 6 months to live. God blessed us with a successful surgery to remove the tumor from his frontal lobe. They almost completely removed the tumor and he would be under aggressive Chemotherapy and Radiation to keep it under control and from growing any faster. His new prognosis was 12-18 months maybe..

Do you remember on the news like crazy a lady named Brittany Maynard who died on November 1st as part of the Die with Dignity thing. She could take a series of medications that were prescribed to her to die peacefully in her sleep whenever she was ready. She didn't have to wait to waste away in front of her new husband or parents. She didn't HAVE to struggle with the side effects of treatment or deal with the cancer. She did end up having some struggles no doubt but she wanted to die with dignity before it became too late. Brittany Maynard chose to die before it got too bad. She had the same or similar type of cancer that Dad has. Here is an article about Brittany Maynard
 http://www.cnn.com/2014/11/02/health/oregon-brittany-maynard/index.html

Back to Dad's story.. Dad's treatments were an hour and a half from their home. At first they were maintaining two homes. Chris works full time and has for the 10 years I have known him as often and as dependable as the mills are but his paycheck only stretches so far. Jennifer and Chris have four children (from 3-13) to provide for. Dad's treatments would vary depending on the growth of the tumor.. sometimes several times a week to once a week. Jennifer was a Stay at Home Mom often picking up customer service jobs she could do from home until caregiver of her father became a priority. In the past year Jennifer has had personal and medical challenges of her own. While under going an emergency procedure Jennifer also found out they were being evicted and Franks own father had passed away. If you could please pray for this wonderful family that has helped me through my own down and out times and there were times in my life when we gave each other the shirt off each others back and our last slice of bread. Its the way we've known each other. Unfortunately right now I am not in the position to help much. I run an online Yard Sale page and a lot of the funds I earn from that will go towards meeting these goals. I have tried all types of fundraisers for Franks treatment's before and only earned $5.

Jennifer's engine in her old beater of a minivan blew up and it was impossible for her to get Frank to Chattanooga for treatment and she has been living with this guilt. I tried to help navigate through the engine repair and ended up having to take a bigger loan out with the shark that sold her the van. His condition started to deteriorate 2 -3 surgeries and about 2 years later he had his routine cat scan and the tumor is far too progressed for treatment now the options are limited to hospice. So Frank has been on Hospice at home surrounded by Jennifer, Chris, their room mate, and their four children. In a very small apartment.

One month ago Dad was placed on hospice because he had a stroke, the tumor is back and large swelling and putting pressure on one side of his brain.

A week or so later Jennifer reported he was doing as well as expected but last night I got the message that she had been very ill again and unable to keep me updated and that he didn't have long left.

He doesn't have an active life insurance policy as he had to leave his job and stop paying on his life insurance policy when he became sick so all Gofundme funds will go to Funeral and Travel costs.. (I want to be able to be there for them!)

Please pray for my family <3 p="" thank="" you="">

No Mom Talk Monday ~ Shopping

I lost contact with one of my best friends for almost a year... .damn technology and sickness. Well anyways when I talked to her again I found out she was six months pregnant and she had been unable to work. I said I will help you I got tons of boy clothes (she didn't know the sex of her baby) and I will start looking for unisex and girl stuff. I hit my favorite thrift store called Asbury (Everything that is clothing is a $1)... steals! Then Consignment sale season started and that is my biggest shopping spree twice a year. I have gathered up over three jumbo diaper boxes for her full of clothes. Two are unisex and one is all girl.. YEAH that's right she had a baby girl last Friday. Anyways we aren't talking about MY kids or HER kids either! But mommy and baby are doing well! We are going to talk about my favorite hobby... SHOPPING At the four consignment sales I went to I spent roughly 3.33 an item... on average. I did get an RC Wall-E Robot for $8, Leapster Two with Two games for $40... almost everything my kids need for Spring and Summer.. There is still a few things... Oops we aren't talking about KIDS here. No way! Anybody that has lived here for just a little while knows the Consignment Sales are DA STUFF! I didn't even go to the biggest one! I really enjoyed buying the tiny baby clothes that were all prissy since I probably will never get them for myself! It was so much fun! I could do it all the time.. Oh wait I have another friend due in the Fall... plenty of time to round up some wardrobe!

Why Is it

Why is everything my fault no matter what goes wrong in a friendship or anything I do. Donnie tries to turn it around on me. I had a friend April who screwed around on her husband NEVER came to see me I always went to her. I would always take the initiative. She was too busy trying to be 17 again instead of worrying about her four kids. Now how was this my fault? Because I didn't accept her behaviors? Then there was Jennifer from Adairsville who always screwed around on her husband and would tell him she was hanging out with me always using me. THEN had the nerve to flirt with Donnie and both of them were constantly lying. Again I can't accept the behavior why? Brandy... lying enough said..... Now with Jennifer my neighbor I am so sick of being yelled at and taking things out on me. WHO the hell does she think she is! I am OLDER than her too! Yes Jennifer has given me rides and watched Skylar at a time for nothing but we do for them too whether it be when their electricity was turned off we let them hook an extensions cord to our house. I have spent a lot of money on them just out of the goodness of my heart! I think we have been pretty even now a days she hasn't done anything.. no rides no babysitting (even paid she grunted), and no favors. I have asked to borrow movies, burn copies of them whatever and never get anything and they come over here for cigarette's, wanting me to burn music and burn movies for them. I tell Donnie why are you doing favors for them? He brings up what they do for us an doesn't account that I bent over backwards from Skylar's stuff mysteriously appearing over there. Skylar going without a coat or shoes because Jennifer took it upon herself to let Carri use Skylars. YES THERE IS A PROBLEM! Now there is a problem! Multi problems!
1) I am already ill with Jennifer that she thinks she has the right to talk to me the way she does. She kinda tried to blow me off about babysitting Skylar for the ONE day I need her. She got fired from her other job so she does need the money.
2) I would love to know why Donnie takes this side. Why I always do the bad! He once told me I push people away (I had to go to therapy for this one) and he told me I act like this and that's why I don't have friends.

On top of that. I wonder if Donnie and I aren't connected anymore in anyway. He shuts himself off from Skylar and I. He goes to work and then comes home to play Quake or the computer in general. Its old he wont even eat dinner down here and if he does its in the kitchen standing up. I asked him to go with Butch and I to get Skylar's haircut and he didn't want to. I had to go get coca-cola and go see if my idiot boss had posted the schedule. I'm tirrrrrrredddddd! Oh and Skylar waking up in the middle of the night ok she is three years old how many times has he "gotten up" for her?? ONCCCE!!!! I told him I don't know who the hell you think you are God's gift to sleep that you don't have to wake up for your daughter and take care of her needs but its gonna stop. He said I don't and I said well it sure looks like it considering you have only helped me once! Remind me why aren't I single to mingle now?