I’ve learned a lot about PTSD through my life as an Army wife. I’ve learned my own PTSD. This year I think I have new triggers if that’s possible? Completely unrelated to my previous issues with PTSD. This one is a lot more of an every day battle than my other. It’s a constant battle of avoiding triggers, dealing with night terrors, insomnia, sadness, grief, and loneliness. It’s lonely because most of it no one knows about. I just dig my heels in and take the waves of indescribable pain. I can take the pain but the energy it takes to pick myself up when I know the triggers are almost unavoidable and there is no one that can understand why... that’s just exhausting and leaves me a empty.
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